he hates me. and i know it. but i didnt think he'd do it like this.

gahhhhhh i hate how i'm like this.

and like that.

so. do i keep trying. or do i just give up? its the last thing i want to do. but sometimes it sounds better than being unhappy. gahhahavsdfalskdfj; alsdfj sa.

i hate highschool. to the max.

why the fuck do i hate life right now? Oh, let me tell you ( Read more... )

You know whats not normal? Gettin yelled at by your best friend 2 outa 3 days. That's not normal. Can i just not do anything right? Am i THAT much of a bad friend? THAT much of a bad girlfriend ( Read more... )

So, something happened last night. Charlie did something that i'm worried about. I trust him but these kind of things scare me. But i dont wanna be one of thoe stupid whiny girlfriends that's like "you cant do anything without DYING" but like at the same time what he did scares me...but i dont want him to know that i worry about him. but ahhh i ( Read more... )

HOW many flaws do i have...lets count them...shall we ( Read more... )

So, i wrote this the other day. It explains how my parents and EVERYONE expect so fucking much outa me. and i just CANT do it. u know?...here it goes.......
PERFECTION. She was THAT girl Perfect in every way. She never had any flaws, As if she was perfectly molded out of clay.
Perfection was her middle name ( Read more... )

So, i thought things would get better. Maybe not. Yea so I now have S.A.D--Seasional Affective Dissorder. My thearapist says that i need to spend like 30 min to an hour ouside everyday. O well, it'll give me an excuse to work out ( Read more... )

Aight, I'm going to keep this blog secret. Its not going to become some broadcast of my feelings for all my friends to see and then come and talk to me about. So, i wrote this poem liiike yesterday. I cant decide if i like it or not ( Read more... )