I was up most of last night lost in my thoughts. Didn't really want to get that far in, but I always end up doing just that. Of course, part of it being my mom's death, then the problems between me and my dad. Sometimes I still hear my mom's voice telling me that she loves me back in the hospital... I hear a lot of things. I also hear the things my ( Read more... )

Today was so annoying in the sense that it's the 13th... and everyone is school was celebrating Valentines Day in school -.- It's such a pointless holiday... and Ashley actually agrees with me on that. We both say that if you love someone, you love them every day of the year... not just on February 14th. Why should all the affection and whatnot be ( Read more... )

I haven't cried since I was a fucking kid... and lately it feels like I'm never going to stop. I didn't want to, but I couldn't stop myself. And most of all, I didn't want anyone to see me do it. Ashley made me... not that she meant to. But somehow she managed to break through my self protective barriers and I completely broke down. I don't even ( Read more... )

I'm bored as all hell... and this is my first fucking entry in this damn journal. I'm not even sure why I made one... it's so pointless really. At least for me it is. The most interesting this I've done is hope around and read other people's lj's... I don't have anything else to do really. I've already taken care of my work, so all that's left is ( Read more... )