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I've hit a snag with Elliot.
She just doesn't have what it takes mentally. Her mind was blown too young too soon and now she doesn't have the focus or the capacity to train like I need her to. Plus I can't keep dealing with her rearing and throwing herself over backwards. She hurt me bad today, and I can't risk that happening everytime I get on her ( Read more... ) -
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"you can't be a cowboy and a nice guy, Lane..."
I'm watching 8 Seconds...I'm in love this movie. It's the saddest movie in the world and makes me bawl like a damn baby everytime, but it also makes me smile huge. Luke Perry does such a good job as Lane.
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On top of everything else, Maxz got really sick today. I took him out and 5 minutes into our ride he started pouring sweat, shaking, trying to lay down, and then his legs wouldn't hold him. He returned to normal about 2 hours later, and nobody can figure out what happened. He's still normal and stable, but I'm so afraid to ride him again.
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Shannon and Cache are bringing Sam home today. There are so many people coming to the service that we can't find a place to have it that will fit them all.
All I want to do is go ride...get out of this damn house so I don't have to hear grandma or momma crying anymore.
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My uncle committed suicide this morning.
Fuck.
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I wonder if all these boys know or remember how all my relationships work out, or think I'm easy, because I honestly don't understand the current overload of male interest. What can they possibly see in me?
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I am done with this.
I haven't heard from Jessy in four days and yet he expects me to drop everything to entertain him while he's in town, plus have a physical "relationship?" I really don't effing think so. If he thinks I'm going to roll over and fall for his slick-talking bs, he's going to be sorely disappointed, and if he picks tomorrow night at ( Read more... ) -
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Ugh. I'm in this slump and I have no idea why. It just kind of hit me. I don't really want to do anything, or actually even think anything really because it just takes too much effort.
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So. Hanging out with Jessy last night? Quite possibly the most boring night of my life. I pray to the lord that he was just shy and nervous...
I don't want to write him off just yet...we still have our date Thursday.
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I'm waiting for Jessy to text me from Baker City, Oregon, since Boise is exactly half-way between here and there. This is nerve-racking.
How do I get myself into these situations? Damn boys.
I feel like the tires on this car, said we wouldn't get far but we're still rollin'...