He makes me feel real again.

god i hate my lonely life. how did i get here again? how did i get to be the girl who feels lonelier with the boyfriend she never sees, than if she was actually alone...again.

loneliness is an ocean that drowns us at our most vulnerable moments.

so tired.

i brought this on myself but it was such an amazing opportunity to be in a show at B Street I didn't want to pass it up. So now my day goes B Street rehearsal 7-10 am, work 10-6, Dracula rehearsal 6:30-10:30...every single day til the 13th. I'm dangerously close to losing my mind. I miss my friends.

I miss them a lot.(cough)..Adam

i miss him.

so much it hurts.

everyday.

time heals all wounds? what a load of shite.

have you ever been so lonely, you actually develop a numbness in your heart? yucky.

wow. libier's getting married. adam's birthday masquerade is tonight. it's a big day. i feel completely disconnected. her ring is amazing. i don't know how to feel. i'm happy, and sad, and jealous, and ecstatic. my mom's coming up tomorrow, school starts monday. and i finally got what i asked for. i am completely alone. attached to no one. not as ( Read more... )

Seeing everyone by my side, especially the one face I longed for more than anything, Jacob, was enough to knock me out of my stupor and get down to some serious ass whooping. Screw keeping everything in order. This is ending. Now. No longer am I going to live in fear that the people I love are going to be taken away from me. I was never able to ( Read more... )

SMACK! Well....that was painful, I think, as I get the shit kicked out of me by the changeling that is still in the form of Adam. He looks me up and down with a sickening grin. "Had enough? I could do this all night," he, excuse me, IT, sneers. I've had about just enough of this bullshit, little does this idiot know I'm just biding my time til Adam ( Read more... )

we let passions spark ( Read more... )

i wake up with my arns fastened tightly behind me and both legs chained to the ground in a rather uncomfortable split-position. Jacob is staring at me inches away from my face. "Brittni," he whispers in urgency, "i was called and i'm here to get you out. just stay calm, okay babe?" I smile drunkenly at him, I'm still woozy from the tranquilizer i ( Read more... )