So I really dislike my father and this joy filled time of the year always brings him to my home.That was no fun also Lilly and I ate alone because apparently I'm too brash to be graced with my family's presence. That was fucking depressing. I fucking hate christmas. but such is my life. Being alone on holidays is awesome. I Don't get it... If I'm ( Read more... )

Everything is so sad... I need to leave... And now I hate movies because they make me all sad. Music is the worst for making people sad though I think. I think when I die I'm going to be absorbed into one of my paintings because I'm just that sad... that would be eerie and lonely. Maybe thats where I REALLY belong *le sigh*

Okay I think everything will be okay as long as I stick to the plan. I started packing and stuff so everything should be okay... mehhh yesss okay. My nerves are shot and my temper has been terrible as of late. My apologies to anyone I've un-intentionally insulted or offended. Oh and by the way... Zombie worms like to eat brains as well. tell tale ( Read more... )

I think every single aspect of my life has now become so hopeless and melancholy. I wish things were not so beyond repair. I don't like my life anymore... I think I need a new one....

So today Lilly and I adopted a cute floppy eared bunny!! Her name is Emo because she looks terribly sad. But she's awesome friendly. I bought her a leash too its so cute. She was separated from all of the other bunnies because they beat her up. The lady at the store said she gets stressed out when she is with other bunnies. And when she's stressed ( Read more... )

okay so a few terrible horrific things have happened recently hence why I have not posted in so long. Something absolutely disgusting and appalling happened to my daughter. I may have cancer in my face I find out in december after my operation... also I may not be able to have anymore children. I don't even understand whats going on anymore.The ( Read more... )

I hate my stupid hair and I'm going to kill it unless my stupid blond-ish streaks become totally white. I'm ready to give up. I cannot achieve the same level of hotness as that stupid cat on bugs bunny and friends. DAMMIT!!!!!!!!! I feel like going to the alley soon because I haven't been there since january.hahaha! they will probably be playing ( Read more... )

Went to Misery signals on monday it was awesome but made me sad. Then Tool last night and that was amazing but that made me sad too. Emotional attachments to music are bad. And hey I could have spit on maynard if I wanted to... But I think he would have enjoyed that. hehehe. That is all I have to say.

Yaaaar
~*Jesska*~

Moving to lethbridge is going to suck. But its all for the greater good. I don't even know anyone there. I'm excited for that though. Hopefully I'll get a good job after. I have to do some more stupid upgrading with my math first but that's okay it will only take me a month or so because I'm doing it "work at your own pace" styles. oh well. I'm off ( Read more... )

Why does everything have to be so tedious and stupid?! I feel like killing something. And waiting to leave sucks.I just wish my parents didn't move when I was younger. That would have made things so much easier. I need to go clothes shopping and dye my hair because its too plain and boring. I hope I can get a job. Modeling and partial schooling ( Read more... )