I kinda forgot about LJ. Neway, look at me talking all AIM like, ha so not me.!!!
Anyway, i have a total of 3 tattoos and im 18. life has been fair, ups ans downs but thats okay.
In the summer i will be attending
The Art Institute of Colorado for Culinary Arts.

So for a few months now (7) i have been learning 2 lanuages, and thank god they are close.
Italian and Spanish.
And this verse from a Josh Groban (my new obsession)
Non voglio perderti
It means
I dont want to lose you.
I mean i dont know just saying it is beautiful,
even this
All'improvviso Amore
That means
suddenly love
but yeah i dont know, these ( Read more... )

I dont know anymore. Things are hard. Im not really happy.
I am going to the doctors on monday to talk to her about my anxiety.
See whats really going on withme.

Alot of stress has been jumping in and out of my life.
But thankfully i have Dria to help me through it. And mat.

my cat poked me in the eye.
she did it on purpose. damn her.

If i am right about the symptoms of a nervous breakdown then i am having one. 3 weeks bad days, over and over again.
When something good happens something terrible hits me as soon as i smile.
I am dreading the 19th so much. I am so scared.
I am having a breakdown.
I cant breath, I cant think.
Nothing All i can do is focus on whats going wrong.
ugh

I have been very sick.
Monday i was sick all day and even on the way to the concert i was very ill. I almost passed out at the concert.
Kinda ruined it for me.
i stayed home all week except mon and friday. even then even today i am sick.
its this stupid flue and its driving me crazy.
I had a dream about cali last night. I miss them so much

Weekends activities!
Friday- Aj's play.
Saturday- Monster Truck Finals (At the Budweiser events center) wiff mommey
Sunday- Superbowl party
Monday- Three Days Grace concert in Denver

My tummy kinda huuurts because i ate taco bell.
mats spending the night again tonight.
schooooooool tomorrow.
its snowng.
lame!

today i bought tickets to see Three Days Grace live with mat.
i got them for his birthday.
and i still need to do some more shopping for it.
yeah.

Things are going well. I can't complain really. I just am having trouble with stress. It's not fair. Feb 19 will be Mat's 18th birthday.. and also the one year annivarsary to Elliote's death. Im so scared. But Mat will always be there for me. I love him to the end of time. I have been watching alot of disney movies recently.
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