the moment i try to create something for myself everything gets insane with friends, family, and myself. with friends, i've given myself out for far too long. i've always been the one right there for them to talk to, to hang out with, and just be there. the second i try to create something for myself and when i need them they can't be there for me ( Read more... )

i just finished reading maybe the last 5 entries i've putten up and most of the things i've said have happened to me. these entries were like 5-6 months ago too. it's quite freaky. today i snapped at my mom and actually yelled at her, when do i ever get that upset and let my anger out? yeah, that's right, never! i felt extremely weird afterwards.

I can't believe I am in my moms minivan right now at 4:41 am because there is no room for me to sleep in my house. Julius is in here with me also. Things are going good for me. I like it a lot.

i'm not satisfied with where i am right now. socially i've been horrible. academically, i'm whatever. physically i feel like crap same goes for emotional. i seem to always look too much into situations. i'm no longer going to think for myself. i'm going to be a leaf caught in a breeze.

lets see ( Read more... )

Junior year thus far is lame, the lunches suck. i still have high hopes for this year though, it's just taking a little longer than expected. I'm willing to wait

hi my name is matt i'm 16 i can get my license on time i just got glasses yesterday. i like them, i just dont like the idea of having glasses. for my birthday i got to pay everything that needed to get paid. being responsible can suck a black mans cock. summer is soon coming to an end that kinda gets me sad, procrastination here i come. high school ( Read more... )

everything seems to be flowing really well. i really enjoy a good a cinnamon raisen bagel and chilled orange juice while reading yahoo news. its times like these where i enjoy the art of silence. i'm really not liking this weather. my birthday is in 10 days, august 3rd, i dont have anything planned, surprise me? "over my head (cable car)" by the ( Read more... )

lets see yesterday was pretty cool i got my warped tour ticket for ventura, then my mom bought me an air conditioner for my room because it's alway hot and musty as hell in here. then i went to my uncles house to eat and what not for independence day, i've never seen so many illegal fireworks lit on one street, it was really cool though. one ( Read more... )

lets see its's summer, thus far i have managed to builed my desk, clean my room, and update my music library a little bit summer has gotten off to a good start i think i'm finally starting to get loney and need a girlfriend, haha, i'm pathetic. fuck it