Comments | xxphoenix: demolition man/i think the world just may be out to get me.

xxphoenix

demolition man/i think the world just may be out to get me.

Feb 21, 2005 16:17

so.
i.i'm not going to stop writing in here no matter what, though i may make it friends only. comment to be added & i'll consider adding you, once the change is made (assuming it is).
ii.even if i decide against that, i'll be making my emotional/destructive/life-altering entries friends-only. if you want a piece of the action, you might be able to ( Read more... )

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... btrflygurl7 February 22 2005, 00:05:21 UTC

you know full well that none of us want to see you gone. Honestly, the lifestyle you are living doesnt seem to be bringing you much happiness. Im sure this pisses you off that I would say that, and dont jump on me for being inconsiderate because Im not. Im simply saying that your life isnt making you happy, and rather than ending it, you could try changing it, and you have PLENTY of people to help you do that. I know that no one person can change your life. Only you can. And unless you change something, I cant really see a happy odel in the future. It will take effort, if you even want to, but tell me honestly, whats so worthwhile about it? Because Its obviously not making you happy. I could make an entire list of people that would miss you if you killed yourself. If thats what you need, by all means Ill make one and laminate it,lol. Its hard seeing you so unhappy, for everyone, which is why I think that if you value your life AT ALL, you need to find something that makes you truly happy. This is turning into a shpiel that will ( ... )

Re: ... paradoxicchaos February 22 2005, 18:21:43 UTC

El problem:

Change is evil. As we have learned the hard way, change never results in worthwhile happiness.

But hey, Odel, whatever you do, just know I support ya, cuz I care. Caring is overrated, but still. Whatever you do, make it big. If everything has a meaning for something, make your meaning "fuck you, world."

*sudden thought*
Though don't murder puppies, because they're about the only good things left in [my] life....
And i said too much again. sorry.
~ze mel

Re: ... btrflygurl7 February 22 2005, 21:05:43 UTC

actually thats not true. change isnt always evil. think back to my ways in 9th grade,and think of who i am now..thanks but ill really have to disagree with you there. changing for the better is not evil.

Re: ... paradoxicchaos February 23 2005, 04:48:48 UTC

What I said was, change never results in worthwhile happiness. In your example, you gave up the innocence you had in ninth grade. Me, I hate giving up what I shan't have need to let go. But hey, that's my opinion.
Any change has a "good" side and a "bad" side. Except for murdering puppies. that's just cruel. But aside from that, you lose something everytime you change. THAT is evil.

Gah I did it again.

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xzenkx February 22 2005, 00:33:00 UTC

Odely, I love you. Be happy?

-Kat

xxphoenix February 25 2005, 16:41:42 UTC

hah.

good incentive.

stuckbetween February 22 2005, 03:00:40 UTC

i would think that this many comments alone would be enough to make you realize that despite your f-ups, we do still care. and if there's anything worth living for, it's the love provided by the people around you.
so cheer up, and call me durnit. 901-921-4339
we need to talk
much luv-that crazy memphis guy

xxphoenix February 25 2005, 16:42:10 UTC

i haven't talked to you in a while.
i'll call you soon, once i get my brain together. somewhat...

anonymous February 22 2005, 20:17:33 UTC

you know i'd hate to ask
but are friends electric?

anonymous February 22 2005, 20:26:50 UTC

you know who this is
call me
i'm sick of everything too
and its only getting worse
my parents know everything
and more
...
...
dont kill yourself
especially with this little contact weve had lately
i wanna see you
and i wanna be there for you
dont be so far away
i cant loose you
your stronger than me
you are
...
put the pills and knives down
come here
please
if you ever attempt to end it all
you mean alot to me
i cant see you go
you know how much i'd hurt?
you know how much OMAR would hurt?
you know how many of the petty friends (as you consider them) would feel?
or bob?
or...whoever else...
...
please
all youve been getting is dont do its....
and if you want
consider this just annother...annoyance
or something
...
just
dont...
,..
...
please??
for the ones who love you?

xxphoenix February 25 2005, 16:43:25 UTC

by far...wow.

i need to see you. i wish you were here. i wish your parents didn't see me as such as bad influence now so i could come see you myself, because i would.

i miss you, GOD DAMN IT.