I realized today how everything has slowly become exactly what it should be. All past failures and unsettling memories have healed. And even though nothing will ever be perfect or exactly what i plan, I have control over my thoughts, actions, and feelings in this universe. I know i have also made mistakes, but one of my biggest is not having ( Read more... )

-i went to the french festival today with katie and Rosie.It was really fun, we ate like 2 crepes each..mmmmm. But then when we went to look for our car we couldn't find it so we spent like 30 minutes walking around, we finally found it and completely collapsed in front of it! But the good part is we totally burned off all of the crepe calories ( Read more... )

-Today i spent an insane amount of money, but i didn't feel guilty because it was my own ( Read more... )

I just watched welcome to the dollhouse with jess....that movie rocks ( Read more... )

I am feeling much lighter, not physically but emotionally. It's a new day. What i speculated was true, yet it has surprisingly made me feel much better ( Read more... )

Today i got my first job...ever. I'm working at the gym i've been going to. I thought it would be some paper work and helping customers...but turns out i have to do all that AND take care of the kids that come in. I'm not that great with kids and sometimes i think i can be brutally honest. I can't help it, i don't want to lie. Kids usually don't ( Read more... )

I feel like i have spent the last years of my life watching my back and never trusting anyone completely....for good reason, i was in high school. But officially this week i am no longer a high school student. And i am going to be real, even if no one agrees or approves ( Read more... )

i am tired but once again i cannot fall asleep. My body aches from being in this state of lethargy. But nothing is going on tomorrow, thank god. i think the reason i can't sleep is because of the new meds my doctor has me on...fun fun meds. But like most ppl who would use this state of awakeness to get things done i choose to sit and think to ( Read more... )

I have to say i am officially a starlet fan. I have even been getting really hooked on reading and posting in the chat rooms. I never thought it would come to this...it was innocent fun at first, and now look at what it has become! It is my guilty pleasure for the week....and i love it ( Read more... )

I dislike crappy parties....once a wise man told me that marshall's parties sucked....and i wish i had followed his great advice. For right now as we speak i regret the night and all of thoughs i encountered. Oh wise man hold my hand now, hold my hand and guide me through this torturous night that is Marshall's party ( Read more... )