tomorrow this doctor better figure out what the hell is wrong with me. im tired of them not knowing...
i feel like how my father feels right now. a medical mystery...no one knows what its from or whats wrong....
AHHHH

ok yes i want some one to fill the empty spot i feel.
will it ever happen.
i want a sign some one show me a sign.

ahhh...

something happen to show me...

im just empty

just once i want something in my life to work out when it deals with a guy. just one.. its all i wish for i know its stupid. i know it is ( Read more... )

and some how they manage to say one word and your heart melts all over again
not this time
and for the other one
forget you tooooo

:: if something happens it happens. and you know what right now im to happy to care..... im just going to let the chips fall as they may. and who knows may be one day when i go to pick on up... he'll be there :::

everything seems to be a mess.
todays just not a good day......
i feel so bad for my brother (j) not (s).all the things he is going through. no kid his age should need to deal with this.

i hope he reliezes what a douche his father is. which im sure he knows it.

: just make every one smile again...and not have my mother lie to me :

the rudest thing said to me ( Read more... )

so this weekend was good ( Read more... )

inside: im done...im hurt....im everything you can not see.

outside: i hide it with this smile

lately my mom is driving me nuts.....

i just want the holidays to be over with

and i feel i know none of my friends any more

i just wish he was out of her life forever,

im sick and have to work this weekend... not looking forwards to it.

so lately everything has been going good.. somethings i hide n rather not deal with ( Read more... )