why am I still here ???  . . . .. . okay so I'm not in the best of moods  ..  .. all I want is him back

God damn this life why am I here I move on as if nothing happened as if nothing was ever there  ..  I hold the blade and make the mark I see the blood and take the part I am the suicidal I am the undead the one that died and was left to stay dead ( Read more... )

Dear Die-Ary,
Please let me die soon . . ..
Blood and Tears,
Desi . ..
I dont go by ash any more

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Another blasted day goes on by and I sit surching for what I once had so very close to me ( Read more... )

Another love pasted and I hurt foreveron ( Read more... )

I watch he sits staring into nothing I cry he laughs not noticing my tears I die he stands there wondering what I'm doing ( Read more... )

hello my birthday  party sucked !!! okay but really  . . . . .yesterday was sweet come over to kristins and people track me down we eaat ribs and beans and eggs and tatters it was yummy then we go on cumputer and we have fun with guys pic.s it rocked!!!!!!! check it out!!
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so finally I die . . so enveloped in pain I see the sickness inside as I watch the falling rain you know i suffer from sickness sickness of the mind but finally I'll escape finally I'll die. my stomach fights in protest and I hide inside my battered heart you know my soul can not rest and that I am torn apart ( Read more... )

everyone must go to my party okay???
okay

SYSTEM OF A DOWN LYRICS ( Read more... )