I don't really know what to say. I don't even know how to name the feelings in correct words that I am feeling. I am so torn. I still love you. And no matter what I always will. It's crazy to be so open about how I feel about someone and feel on top of the world and then five minutes later I get hurt and I feel like I have to throw those walls up ( Read more... )

Now that Jasons relationship is over I am smothering him and I feel horrible for it. I think from now on I will back off and be his friend from a distance. I love himm but I am incredibly scared. I'm in love with that boy. I would do anything for him. I just wish I could just tell him just how much I love him and portray all of my emotions fully to ( Read more... )

This morning my mom and I got into a huge argument. Everyday she tells me how she wants me and my sister to move out. Then when the day comes for it to actually happen she freaks. I told her I was going to start saving. I may not be able to move out until summer but I will at least have enough money to do so responsibly. Anyways it's really ( Read more... )

1. I really like Mike alot ( Read more... )

Emotions run extremely deep, especially when they seem to be the only emotions that you have.

So I haven't told anyone this yet. But I might have a new weekend job lined up making movies for tv at a public access place getting paid like so much money per movie or hour. I haven't decided whether I want to take it or not, but it will be fun and great experience for the future. What do you think?

..so this weekend was cool. On friday I went to work all day, did practically nothing since no one was there. But I got trained on the scanning project which was at least something new. After work I came home and changed and headed to get melissa. After that we headed back to megans house and waited for her doyle and spike to get there. While we ( Read more... )

....I am starting to get to that lonely rejection stage in my mind now. It was alright in the beginning when I didn't recognize it. But every single day it becomes even stronger and more apparent that I have lost something and that I am alone. It's so much more difficult. Being around a crowd and feeling like you are still alone. Or being in a ( Read more... )

........I am so unpredicatble when it comes to guys, art, music, and just life in general. I mean I bet no one can name one type of music, one type of guy, and one type of art that I love more than the others. That is good though, that makes me officially unstereotypable.

Last night I had the craziest dream ever! Because everyone was telling me to be nice and hang out with Megan again I did. And she said that we should go to her Apt with her and her bf, so we get to this street and the car breaks down. She says it always happens right there and that we had to walk to the house by foot. So we walk through this hollow ( Read more... )