there was a good amount of people there tonight.  thanks if you came.

i want someone to believe in me.
and be my friend.
and not bail on me.
and encourage me to do better.
encourage me to pursue what i love.

something must be wrong with me.  i'm growing very tired of these deep feelings of self worthlessness and emptiness.  it doesn't make any sense.  i ( Read more... )

life gets frustrating sometimes.  i wonder where justice is and why there seems to be such a deficiency of it in the world.  i wish i didn't have these questions.  i wish i could just accept things but i really can't.  this is me i guess.

i want to be great at something.  i hate being such a mediocre person.  it would be really great to know that i' ( Read more... )

I'm headed to visit some of my stepmoms family near lake tahoe.  we're going snowboarding and i couldn't really be more excited!  unfortunately however, i have two tests when i get back and i'm really nervous about next weeks show.  songwriting is so difficult and i don't want to be terrible at it.  it's definitely a journey and i have no idea ( Read more... )

i've been taking care of business this semester thus far.  haven't really missed any classes (which is really good for me).  it's quite unfortunate that macroecon is possible the most irritatingly dull class to ever exist in the history of all classes ever... ever ( Read more... )

there is much going on in the life of josh bandy.  i'm just going to organize my thoughts and my life to fill you in (anybody i don't really talk to all that often ( Read more... )

tonight is night 3 of my work schedule.  i've worked 2 days thus far and have no more days to work after tonight.  i'm very excited.  my next paycheck will be quite a hefty sum and i will most definitely be able to use it as the semester begins in just a few weeks.  i'm going to try to pick up a few extra shifts before the commencement of the ( Read more... )

i always say that i'm going to start updating more and i never do.  it's a shame though.  this last week i was able to go up to thousand pines for a day and hang out with some people that mean a whole lot to me.  i got to see jacko, amber, logan, tranica, and tons of other great people.  i really miss them a lot!  it was really cool getting to ( Read more... )

i'm pretty sure i'm going to see death cab and mates of state

august 15 - marina park san diego

how good is that?

today i'm switchin it up a bit.  i'm working the day shift at the hospital and i must say, it feels quite strange.  i woke up at around 430 this morning.  not the time i normally wake up.  i have the tendency to stay up later than i should.  i feel greaet though!  i woke up at 3pm yesterday and went to bed at around 11 or so.  i took some sleepy ( Read more... )

i decided that i'm writing this journal so that jacko and ambo can keep up with my life.  i don't think anyone else reads this thing.  plus, it feels good to get stuff out of my head.  this summer has been nice thus far.  i've been doing my best to relax and not over burden myself.  i've been working at the hospital but only about a day a week.  it ( Read more... )