we finally talked and now I don't know where to go from there. I hate how you make me feel like we're still together. and I hate how yesterday would've been our 4 months but instead, it was the first time we talked in a month.

hopefully things will work out in the end.

playgrounds with danielle tomorrow. that should be fun. I'm hella excited < ( Read more... )

I'm sick of all of you and your bullshit.

I love how we were so perfect. I love how people tell me you'll mention me. I love how much you still make me smile even when you aren't trying. I love how you still look at me the same way. I love how even when you think I hate you, you try to make me laugh. I love how we knew eachother so well. I love how we use to be able to sit in a room with ( Read more... )

I'm so blah lately ( Read more... )

thank you for the cute text messages, they make me feel better :]

and thank you for listening to my pathetic-ness.

alot better than yesterday. Friends are suppose to give you advice, not make you feel like you should crawl into a little ball and die. Whatever. Good thing I have other friends that are understanding and give better advice because they know the situation better.

moving is gonna be hella fun. :]

day 3 of being sick. bleeeeeeh. hopefully I haven't gotten anyone else sick. Today was black friday buuuuuuuut, I hung out with ashley and brittany instead.

Had leftovers at grandpa's. Thanksgiving wasn't bad but it wasn't good. It was no where close to being like it was last year but thats because great grandpa and granny c aren't here any more. ( Read more... )

 the coheed show was hella fun ( Read more... )

 I hate struggling and not being in control of everything.

its whatever though.

yesterday was interesting and tonight should be fun.

and hoooooooooopefully, the mini vacation plans will work. still have to talk to the parentals about it but they're both kinda nazis so we'll see if they'll actually let me go.

I'm sick of not having real friends. I'm sick of putting effort into everything. I'm sick of getting my hopes up. and I'm sick of caring.

I'm fucking done. screw it.