well, i broke apart last nitea nd becmae weak and caller her, i asked her if she wanted to get back together and it was a longer conversation tehn i expected but i am still ending up without her. she still loves me she said, she thinks about me constantly, she misses me, she thinks about getting back BUT BUT BUT she wont do it bc she thinks that it ( Read more... )

my weeekend was good, i met mark on friday nite, hes a beautiful young man, very soft spoken, very shy but i made him laugh for the littelw hile while he took a break between sets. he has these amazing deep dimples that just amaze me, hes a mix of johnny dep and someone else..lol..BUT i think hes to pretty for me ad i dont think i was his type but ( Read more... )

I am meeting my moms boyfrieds son tonite. he's been wantin to meet me since a little before x-mas and he told my mom last nite that he was playing in his band and taht he'd like if she took me. so yea im gonna see whats up with that. im not gonna be seeing or speaking to dawn at all anymore, i just cant handle it really, it hurts to much to be ( Read more... )

well ive been gone for awhile, i was doing the get over the love of my life routine so i had to disappear for some time. but not much to report anwyays. me and dawn are very civil with each other, just trying to become friends and do whatever had and has to be done. i saw her wed, on the 5th(havent seen her since like b4 thanks day), it w as funny ( Read more... )

its weird, i love dawn, i know that, i'm in love her but i guess it all got so old. i put so much energy into believing we would last forever, so much sacrifice and i ahve nothing to show for it in the end. now that i know she doesnt want to be with me, i find myself letting her go, i go out and chill with my friend kellee and i have the best time ( Read more... )

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