I think I'm fucking depressed. I don't really know what's wrong with me, but I get upset at everything.
I fucking hate this.
I want to stop taking it out on him.
MAKE IT STOP

YOU'RE AGGRAVATING THE HELL OUT OF ME!!!!

What the hell is wrong with you?

THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE.

I know it seems trivial

But date me or don't. just be okay with me being gone.

I CANT STAND
you standing there
sitting there
laying there
texting her
like you always do
she always has a million problems
most of which don't matter
you're always her knight in ( Read more... )

spoke too soon. dont go

and no,

I hope you never read any of these.

sometimes i think i can tell you everything

sometimes i know i can't

there are some things i wish i could tell you

some things i wish would make a difference

but they are too fucking scary

too fucking much

for someone like us to rationally think about

without being even more scared away than we already are

you had me so fooled
you had me almost completely forgetting that she even existed

you had me almost completely forgetting that we aren't together

I almost had you

almost got the best of me

you're pushing me away - almost

Some days I want to hate you for breaking me like this.
It was terribly awful of you.
I'm not sure what's going on with everything anymore.
But seriously, don't be worried if I disappear.
Actually... do be worried.
Hurt like I hurt.
Feel like I feel.
But no, I'm not allowed to wish that upon you.
You've already hurt too much

I'm not even definitely positive.
But I think I'm ready to walk.

I NEED AN ESCAPE
like seriously.
I need to want to escape.
I need to stop hurting myself.
I can't even talk to you anymore.
I don't have the right.
I know I don't.
You ask me why I'm frustrated.
You say what's wrong - I look like I'm going to cry.
well I fucking am.
I just can't talk to you about it
because if i do
I'll lose you.
You have no idea how hard this ( Read more... )

Nick. I'm going crazy. Not really. But shit sucks. Most the tyler thing sucks. he broke up with me friday, we each went and hooked up with other people, and to find that out sucked. and yet we're still hooking up... still pretending its okay. we're not fighting anymore. but thats because im back to square one. where i dont know what im allowed to ( Read more... )