you would have thought my depression, anxiety, fear of myself would be gone. nope. I am still fucking insane. idk how I managed to live this long. because we all know I should be dead. life has not gone the way I planned. if you see this and want to reach out do so. idk if anyone even still uses this service. we all have become to absorbed with ( Read more... )

if i were to draw you a map could you find the way out of this place. if we could re trace our steps and go to where it all began could you relate to how I feel. would you tell me you are there for me. hold me closer and tell me. because sometimes i feel its like snakes hissing through the vines striking at oppurtune times. making my blood turn to ( Read more... )

reality. what is it. to touch feel taste and smell. its just this which i cannot understand how we feel it takes forver to achieve something in life but when we have achieved it, we think that it just happened yesterday. my head hurts i really need to go to a menatl instutution because we know its nothing physical, but it is causing me great pain. ( Read more... )

I envy everyone of you who knows what they want in life. Regardless of what it is. Derek has broke down once again. and is exposed, I am sorry that it happens so often. Im sorry I am a nerd who couldnt live on his own. I am sory that I have failed.

im starting to think no one reads these. or cares enough to reply.

california died ( Read more... )

this change in the wind is blowing me in the direction of my heart anticipation passion is ringing on the tombs of the old ways my heart wants to follow them but fears the toll. and so the ever waiting fear the true pain in desolation i turn to misanthrophy hatred i am born. an ever waiting shadow cast on thee i shall be here waiting freedom my ( Read more... )

thursday night had a show. friday morning stayed up playing video games friday afternoon slept friday evening woke up. hungout with thomas and a few other people. friday night heather *friend from vegas shows up* so we all back into the car around 230am and go to dennys eat our asses off. then we go to random parks and hangout and strangely enough ( Read more... )

28 unknown facts/secrets about yourself ( Read more... )

my band has music up now check it out www.myspace.com/bodiesleftburning