i have absolutely no one to talk to about how i'm feeling. no one will listen and i feel like crying every night before bed, but i never do.

school is going terribly. i'm going to try really hard to make this last quarter a good one. i know that i can do well, so i just need to do it.

i don't smoke and yet i have no motivation.

Things that are making me upset ( Read more... )

NOW I FEEL LIKE CRYING.

it's not a big deal that i can't drink tonight, right? i can have my fun in college.

it just pisses me off to know that plans would be postponed if someone like bryan or tom or even steve couldn't make it, but when it's me who can't come, no one gives a shit.

suck my nonexistent cock.

Lately I've been wishing that I had a dad that was around and supportive of me and like other kids' fathers. But, it's really just a facade. I don't believe in perfection anymore. I don't believe that things are exactly what they seem.

"i don't want to call you or check your away messages because it hurts me even though we made a deal to let eachother know when people were hanging out and even though you probably don't have anything going on anyhow. it's just easier, it's just what i need ( Read more... )

I have brought my 2K time down to 8:50, which is pretty nice. Today is our first erg race- at Arlington. I'm pretty nervous ( Read more... )

Disney World was pretty fun. I really like Grace and Lucy and I'm glad that I roomed with them ( Read more... )

Friday night I set up for the Senior Citizens Prom with Hannah, Damien, and Ryan Dowden. It was two hours of tedious tasks, but it's good to get some more community service hours. You know? Then we went to Pete's where I ate some dinner. After that, we headed to Hardscrabble to meet up with Ryan Griswold. They were filming some movie in Subway and ( Read more... )

This is what makes me angry more than my own personal problems ( Read more... )

I'm just sick of feeling like I'm being replaced. And I'm sick of feeling like any little special things that we had are now open to whoever wants to take part in them ( Read more... )