So I haven't updated my journal since Sunday morning, I think ( Read more... )

Friday--
day.
Not a good day at school. Too much drama with Bartley and Mat. *sigh*
night.
Chelsey, Joe, Mat, and I=double date. We went out to dinner then so hung around. Layed under the stars and cuddled and all that jazz.

Saturday--
day.Woke up at 9, ate breakfast, worked out and ran for an hour and a half, showered, went to the mall with my ( Read more... )

So today was a pretty good day. History block-->holding hands with Mat the whole time ( Read more... )

Today was the best Monday I have ever had I think. Woke up, tired, went to school and gave Mat his 'Colletta'scope (kelydascope) and wooden snake. We had an asembly which was not bad since we all just talked the whole time and I got to hold Mat's hand the whole time ♥. Mike and I texted the whole entire day and he must come down to visit me! I have ( Read more... )

Yesterday I woke up at 10 and worked out/running, showered, then went with Chelsey and Joe. We went to lunch and the toy store where I bought $40 dollars worth of toys. The toys aren't for me though. Hehe. Last night I had to babysit since it was my mommy's birthday and she wanted to go to dinner with my dad. I pretty much spent my night on the ( Read more... )

I did everything I could.

I tried so hard.

I was everything you could ask for. That's what you used to tell me.

And look. I'm dead.

When was the last time you saw me smile a real smile. Not one to cover up how I was feeling or a forced one.

Guess what?

No more emo.

Yayy. I am changing back to the happy Jackie.

Emo sucks. I was it for like a couple weeks. Ew. Ew. Ew.

Yayy!

-Jackie <3

I dumped him.

He cheated on me. Twice.

How cliche.

Kill me now.

I can't even cry because tears can not even express how I feel.

And the only way to get help is to ask for itTo ask means to admit but admit keeps from continuation ( Read more... )

Cause I never knew you.

he
is confusing.

and i just can't get enough.

he's wonderful
i want him
all of him
when he makes me feel like

that.

i'm his only one.
until
everything opens up

when i let my eyes open
and actually look at the details
it hurts too much

i'd rather be dreaming.

i'd rather be oblivious to everything.because it's the ( Read more... )