Wow my depression is getting way out of hand. I cry all the time my sickness is getting worst. My life feels like it is slipping through my finger. My life is like the pits of hell. My job is stressin me out cause its making me sick cause all the sleep that i lose makes my body ten times weeker. The lithuim is already kicking my ass. I dont know ( Read more... )

My life has no meaning anymore. There is no joy in my life. I no longer have my baby by my side. He's no longer there to make the pain go away. I caused the pain and stress that now is in his life. If it was not for me then he would be free. My love for him has put his life in a jam. If it was not for me then nothing bad would happen to him. My ( Read more... )

I swear god has it out for me. Fucken everything seemed like it was going back to normal with me and kaylin well as normal as it could be. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Well his ma has the letters she knows were going out. Now she's all like i better not ever see her at ur grandmothers or so help me god like she's gonna do something to me. He did not get kicked ( Read more... )

Ok so today has been crazy. I had so much fun. I went to merricks b-day party and had so much fun. It was crazy and fun and i ripped my pants tear.... Me and merrick and lee wresteled most of the day. Holy shit lee is strong he had three girls on his back give them a piggy back ride it was me joey and jessy it was funn. Merricks dads car is kick ( Read more... )

OK so there is so much drama in my life i think i live in a soap. Every day something seems to happen that brings stress in to my life. It sucks cause the one place that did not have stress was my relationship well it had not for a while but now its back. The sneaking and hiding is back and god do i hate it. Now i also get to sit and worry about ( Read more... )

OK hey everybody! Well this week has been an amazing week more like sense thursday. When i get depressed i get sad for a while but no one can tell cause i hide it so well. Well Thursday i was finnaly happy again i had so much fun me and katie my skillbiulder went up the hill down the hill and did laundry and i found happyness in little thing which ( Read more... )

Omg this weekend has been so much fun. I went to the movies friday night with merrick and joe and another person. We had so much funn just doing random stupid stuff. There were boas in the claires store so we tryed them all on and took pics. Then when we were out side there was a shoppingcart so i got in it and got pushed around and we took more ( Read more... )

Ok so my internet is finally working yaa. Im so happy. But other then that im pissed and very confused. Like i love Kaylin alot and shit and I dont wanna leave him but im getting annoyed with him. He is always always lieing to me. I have no trust in him what so ever. Like nothing he says to me I believe. Like so I cant see him anymore cause he's ( Read more... )

Ok so this is the most fucked up day of my life. So I went out of town for 3 days and could not see kaylin cause i was in pa and then i did not get to see him till tuesday and i saw him on wensaday but other then that i have seen him for like 15 minutes every other day and now his mom has just found out that me and him are going out and now i cant ( Read more... )

Omg I just want to leave but my fucking parents are up yet and this is annoying me to the fullist. Im hungry and my uncle dont have any good cereal grrrrrrrr. Me and ang are so bored that we are iming each other and shit thats how bored we are. well see life is so boring right now i dont have anything meaningfull to write about so im just gonna ( Read more... )