life is back to the awesomeness it should be ( Read more... )

i haven't written in this thing in ages and it feels like i am living in a different world these days ( Read more... )

New Orleans is wonderful this time of year. It makes me happy to see it rain. The shows that i designed went well yesterday and i am currently avoiding their second showing. Self hatred is dabilitizing. I wish i wasnt such an alcoholic but i am so fucking bored with myself right now that there appears to be no other avenue but the constant drug ( Read more... )

so being homeless is depressing--mostly because if i feel this bad, where i am, than i cant even imagine how difficult real homelessness must be. some day i really want to help bring people off of the streets. but then again i also really want to finish writing my existentialism final, and instead i went to happy hour and then watched survivor for ( Read more... )

Every time i am signing in i ask myself why, really ( Read more... )

Shit! I really fucked up... again ( Read more... )

everything is the same, everything is different ( Read more... )

As much as i worry about my continuous strain of alcoholism i really love those belligerent nights when you make just the right drunken move and the night is all smiles and hoping around from party to parade to party, screaming at the top of your lungs in the desperate hope that someone, and everyone, will throw you another strand of cheap plastic ( Read more... )

Life is slowly slipping further and further into that corner between couch cusions of reality. the wierd thing is, after all the time i spent wanting to be here i'm only finding myself yet again bored with the world. its as though even reality can never be quite real enough. i just finished reading the dharma bums and now all i want to do is buy ( Read more... )

wow i cant believe that this symester in new orleans has finally started up again. it makes me so happy to find myself surrounded in all my old friends again. the mood around here is a bit solemn and the city has some bad spots but overall everyone that came back is back for a reason. good things should be coming.

i wish i had my kewter here...