Jessie ate some meat today and now I feel sick. I don't understand why she feels it's so hard to go vegan. We'll feel much happier and healthier if she just does so.

I was overjoyed to find out that Jessie wanted to get rid of our dreads and dismayed that she had to cut our hair to do so. I was all ready to do treatments on our hair to repair the damage. Now we have a very short hairstyle that is driving me crazy. Oh well, it'll grow out...right?

I think our body is detoxing. I just spent way too much time in the bathroom. Yuck. All I could think was it had to be the tea I drank yesterday.

I'm so happy! I've been doing yoga every day...belly dancing about every other day (when I get the chance)....starting to get to eat my veggies! Yum and yay! I'm just so happy. Oh and did I mention that the smoking is over and done with? Granted, she ate a donut today but I won't let that get in the way of my happiness! lol ( Read more... )

Jessie is slowly comming out more and more. though when she does she yells or is depressed. So, here I am trying to pretend to be her. I am getting us to quit smoking though. Well, partially through the nagging of the husband, who doesn't want us smoking anyway. And partially because it's just gross! lol ( Read more... )

I didn't get to bellydance today and I'm a little bumed about that. I would do it now but the roommate is sleeping on the couch and I don't want to wake him. At least the child is playing quietly and the baby is upstairs sleeping. I guess I'll go check on her and then do some surfing on the net. I'm really quite bored.

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I can't believe I feel the urge to smoke. Me! I hate smoking. But, half the people in our system smoke so naturally I feel the effects. Maybe I can get us all to quit. Afterall, I've decided to make the best of being out. I'm working out, I'm cleaning, I'm trying to care for the kids...might as well quit smoking while I'm at it. Oh, and I ( Read more... )

So, Jessie wakes up with the kids and then decides she doesn't want to be out anymore. So, what does she do? She starts looking at my journal in an attempt to trigger me, which it does. I can still feel her as if we were blended a little. It's making me depressed. What is wrong with her???

I'm not used to having so much time out. I don't know what to do with myself.