Bottom line is...life sucks. It just sucks real bad especially when you cant enjoy your favorite holiday of the year and just smile bout the lil things that should bring you joy. Why do I feel so depressed bout such things? Why can't I just be happy? The one thing that had brought unhappiness to me, is done and over with. I'm kinda actually over ( Read more... )

I have been broken into pieces and will never truly be okay again. I went to disney today...it was a lot of fun and in all honesty it got my mind off a lot of things. But as always, I come home and gettin back to my depression and realize what the fuck happened. It hurts...it hurts more than it ever has and I truly don't know how to get it fixed. I ( Read more... )

DAMN EVERYONE, DAMN THIS FUCKIN SCHOOL, DAMN ALL THE STUPID TEACHERS! I try my damn hardest this semester but for some dumb ass reason, I still screw up! That's it...I'm just a screw up. I QUIT ( Read more... )

Schools finally over...well almost. There's still finals to go but no more classes!! I can't wait till its done and over with. It's been such a crazy semester. I'm tryin to get in the holiday spirit...so far I've got nothin. Maybe by next week, things will change ( Read more... )

I don't have the slightest idea on how to feel better. Things are soo messed up and not the way they are supposed to be. I know I should believe the sayin, "things happen for a reason," but in this case..it's NOT supposed to be this way! It's just not and just can't be!!! I pushed the problem outta my life but in reality it wasn't a problem....it ( Read more... )

Happy Thanksgiving! Hope everyone eats lots and lots of turkey! yummmmyyyyy
My list of must to have on Thanksgiving...
10. Sweet Potatoes
9. Dinner Rolls
8. Stuffing
7. Salad
6. Macroni and Cheese
5. Apple Pie
4. Mashed Potatoes
3. Pumpkin Pie
2. Green Bean Casserole
1. TURKEY!

Finally, I can say.....MOVIN ON....
Am I happy bout it? Things have become so clear to me...it feels good to know the truth..

All the damn stress that I've had all week is finally over! I finished my last test this morn and probably the only test this week that I did so good on....at least we hope..haha. wooohoooooooooooooo ( Read more... )

I'm listenin to Story of the Year's "Sidewalks" and it just brings back memories...I'm not sure what the song really means or whether or not its bout actual sidewalks but it makes me think of the good times and not so good times..the fun times and the borin ass times..the fights the flirtiness...Things are soo much different now and I've totally ( Read more... )

Everythin that I was feelin the past few months and was soo scared to admit it, has now gone down the hole. It has completely been useless to feel this way..how could you possibly have these feelins when the other doesn't feel a thing? I guess it actually is possible bc well it happened. But it's okkk...I've moved on once, twice, many times. It'll ( Read more... )