Thank God for Empty Classrooms and Glen Campbell Chapter Four
September 20th 2015
I don't know what the hell I had been thinking when I took Jensen up on his offer, it must have been the meds, it had to have been because no sane man would put himself in this situation.
The first few weeks had been great, we were actually able to mess around like we did when we were younger and I had actually convinced myself that this was better than nothing and that was how it played out until two weeks ago.
September 06th 2015
“ Jared are you up for going out for breakfast?” I looked up from what I was doing and was on the verge of telling him that I would love too when I noticed that he walked right in front of me NAKED, no boxers, no socks just au natural. Even though it was a quick pass by my door to his I saw it all and I could feel the heat rise from my neck all the way to the tips of my ears and straight down to my cock which at this point was rock hard and I was barely able to get out an OK.
“ Are you sure cause you sound a bit strange?” He said as I heard him turn back around and walk in my direction which caused me to panic, so I quickly ran to the bedroom door closed it and bolted it shut.
“ Jared are you OK?” He asked as he knocked on my door.
“ Yeah... I'm OK.”
“ Alright then, well I am just going to run round the corner to get the paper, do you want anything?”
“ No thanks.”
“ OK, I will be back in ten minutes.”
I heard his footsteps walk away from the door and then five minutes later I heard the front door open then close as he left for the paper which in turn let me relax and take a deep breath which I realized I had been practically holding in.
And my mind kept wandering back to that glorious sight, something that I had never expected too see and now that I had I could not seem to forget. You would have thought that it was the first time I had seen a dick which was not the case, I had seen plenty, and while I had been with a number of different men since High School none of those were Jensen's cock and that is what made all the difference. But I did not have time to sit and dwell on that as I had a major problem right in front of me as he would be back in a few minutes and he would expect me to be ready and waiting to go to breakfast with him and there was no way I could leave the house much less this room with my cock as hard as it was.
That day had been the longest of my life as every time I looked at him I had a flash back and I would begin to flush, and then I would have too excuse myself, something that I am sure caused suspicion. I wanted so badly to talk to someone about this but the only person who would even remotely understand what I was going through would be Chris or so I thought which brings me to where I am now with Christian not being very helpful at all.
“ So you saw his dick big fucking deal, it is not the first time you have seen a cock Jared.”
“ Well it is the first time I am seeing Jensen's you know.”
“ His cock, your twelve any more Jared. You can say the word c.o.c.k, now say it with me.” He said loud enough for us to get a few people to stare at us.
“ Will you keep your fucking voice down please.... you just do not know when to fucking quit do you?” The look on my face must have warned him about how pissed I was getting as his features softened before he spoke.
“ OK I am sorry for making a big joke out of your dilemma but what do you expect me to tell you, better yet what do you want me to say?”
“ I don't know OK, I just needed.... forget it.” I said as I threw my hands up in frustration.
“ No, say what you were going to say.”
“ I just needed to get that of my chest, that's all.”
“ Well I am glad that you feel comfortable enough to confide in me, it means a lot to me Jared.” And with that he reached across the table and gently squeezed my hand.
Lost in the moment of our exchange we were both unaware that someone was standing over us, thinking it was a waiter Chris spoke in a sarcastic tone of voice.
“ Can't you see we are having a fucking moment here?” We both looked up at the same time but our responses were completely different. Chris started to laugh out loud while I began to choke on a piece of Beef as it was none other than Jensen standing above us.
“ Quick drink this.” Chris said as he handed me his water, with a smirk on his face as he watched me struggle to get it down.
Jensen looked at me with concern in his eyes as he spoke. “ Are you OK Jared, do you need some more water?” He said as he called over a waiter to bring me a pitcher of water before I even answered.
“ Yeah I was.... I..... um what are you doing here?”
“ Nothing much, just thought I would stop in to get something to eat.... what are you doing here, the doctor said bed rest, remember?” He said in an authoritative tone.
“ Yeah I do but I thought it would be good to get out for a few hours and.....”
“ He's with me.” Chris said interrupting me, Jensen looked at him for the first time that evening and regarded him with little if no emotion as if he was nothing more than an inconvenience.
“ Christian.” I warned seeing that he was getting ready to say something else.
“ What?”
“ Um... do you want to join us Jen.” I asked, quickly regretting it as I felt my erection begin to grow.
“ No, I can see that you are busy.” He said as he looked at Chris with a sneer on his face.
The history between Jensen and Chris has not been a pretty one especially since mine and Chris's break up. It was hard for Jensen to see me turn in too the blubbering mess that I was after Christian left me. I had told Jensen everything that had happened not leaving out a single detail, including Christian's cheating and he had decided right there and then that he could not stand him.
“ No sit, I don't mind.” Chris said trying as hard as possible to slightly size Jensen up.
“ No it's OK, I am just going to grab something and go.” And then turning to me he asked. “ What time are you coming home?”
“ Well I an almost done.”
“ You can ride back with me then, does your friend need a ride?” And even though he was trying to seem polite, I as well as Chris could see right through his act.
“ No his friend does not need a ride thank you very much.” He replied sarcastically.
I flashed Chris another warning look only to have it returned full force it was then that I knew that I needed to diffuse the situation before it turned ugly.
“ Chris I will talk to you later and thanks for listening to me.”
“ No problem Jared.... I'm here for you when ever you need me.” He said looking straight at Jensen as he spoke, then to my surprise he leaned straight over the table and kissed me on the lips which made Jensen storm off towards the counter for his food.
“ What the hell are you trying to do?” I asked Chris angrily wanting to smack the smirk off his face.
“ Just trying to help you out, I actually think Jensen might be jealous.” The thought had crossed my mind but I dismissed it just as quickly as I thought it.
“ No he is just annoyed.”
“ At?”
“ You know?”
“ No I don't know, so tell me.”
“ You know Jensen knows about you and me back then.”
“ Yeah.... you know I really am sorry about that don't you?”
“ Yeah I know... you just can't help being an asshole sometimes.”
“ Exactly, and when you get the chance maybe you can explain that too your boyfriend.”
“ He is not my boyfriend.”
“ Yet, I am getting some vibes off of him that tells me different.”
“ Whatever Chris, I will call you later.”
“ Yeah OK.” And as I turned to walk away I stopped and spoke to him again. “ And Chris?”
“ Yeah?”
“ If you pull another fucking stunt like that again, I will rip your balls off.”
He just snickered at that then blew me a kiss.
I looked over my shoulder just in time to see the one thing that would push me off the edge, Christian fucking Kane laughing and blowing Jared a kiss and Jared gladly finding solace in it. It made me wonder how many times Jared had to get knocked down and run over before he realized he was setting himself up for another fall.
“ That will be $32.65 please.... wait a minute aren't you Jensen Ackles?” I looked up at the girl behind the counter as she spoke.
“ Yeah, how are you?”
“ Oh my god, guys it's Jensen Ackles.” She screamed leaving me no choice but to leave a fifty on the counter, grab my food and make a run for the door. I looked over to where Jared had been standing and noticed that he had already left.
As I reached my car I noticed Jared leaning against the hood.
“ Here, you drive.” I said as I threw my keys to him.
“ Why, what's going on?”
“ That.” I said pointing to diner and the crowd that had gathered there to search for me among the rows of cars.
At seeing the crowd he quickly jumped in the drivers side as I jumped into the passengers seat, started the car and quickly drove out of the lot onto the street.
“ Why did you run?”
“ What the hell was I supposed to do?”
“ Sign a few autographs, take a few pictures. They are your fans Jensen.”
“ And I am entitled to get a fucking moments peace am I not?” I knew I was taking this out on him when I did not have the right to.
“ Fine.” He replied.
“ I'm sorry Jared, it's just been a hard fucking week and with you out of the office, Steve had to hire some idiot that doesn't know his head from his ass.”
Jared chuckled at that. “ So are you guys starting to miss me yet?”
“ I don't know about the rest of them but I sure as hell do.” And with that I leaned over and squeezed his shoulder which caused him to flinch.
“ You OK?” I asked thinking that maybe it was his medication acting up.
“ Um..... Yeah I'm fine.” And even though he said he was fine, he did not look fine.
“ So what did you get?” He said breaking me out of my thoughts and returning my attention back to him.
“ Huh?”
“ Food Jen, what did you buy?”
“ Ham on rye,mayo, lettuce, pickles, mustard... you know the works.” And since he had bought it up I asked him the same question.
“ What did you have?”
“ Steak and Fries, it was pretty good.”
“ And your friend?” I asked as politely as I could.
“ I think he had chicken salad.” He said quickly glancing at me before turning his eyes back to the road.
“ It suits him.”
“ What?”
“ Nothing.”
“ No you were going to say something so say it.”
“ No forget it Jay.”
“ Dammit Jensen don't start this shit with me again, we said we were going to work through our issues and that includes communication.”
“ Fine.” if he wanted the truth I would give it to him.
“ What the hell are you doing talking to Chris again?”
“ He is my friend Jensen.”
“ He fucked you over.”
“ And so did you.”
“ Fair enough.... just answer me one thing.”
“ What?”
“ Are you still in love with him?”
“ No, Chris is just a friend and only a friend.”
“ I still don't like him and I don't like him hanging around you. The guy is nothing but trouble.” I said and I realized I was coming of as something of a father figure and it pissed me off as I did not want him to think of me like that.
“ I know your concerned Jensen and I understand, but Chris really has tried to make it up to me, he really has.”
“ Well the only thing I can think is that he is trying to make up for lost bedroom time.” And as I said that Jared started to blush furiously.
“ It's not like that trust me, Chris does not want me.”
“ But do you want him?”
“ Of course not, Chris is a good guy at times but he is not what I need.”
I was about to ask him what he thought he needed but by then we had already arrived home and he was halfway out of the car, headed for the door.
I could not quite figure out where Jensen was going with this but I got an uneasy feeling about it, him getting into it with Chris was something that I absolutely wanted to avoid. And if I knew the both of them as well as I thought I did neither one would back down from an argument.
As I fumbled with the house keys Jensen came up behind me and took them from my hands, that was not what caused me to almost send him head first to the pavement, no it was the fact that he encircled my waist to get to the keys.
He grabbed me by the hand and took me with him into a patch of grass, narrowly missing the concrete.
“ You OK?” He asked with concern written in his eyes.
I was barely able to answer with my erection springing up against him.
“ Jared are you OK?” He asked once again.
“ Yeah.” I quickly answered pushing myself off of him and turning around as quickly as I could.
And as he managed to untangle himself from the over grown grass I noticed a few of the buttons on his shirt had come off leaving me with the perfect view of his chest, and as grass and sweat clung to him so did my eyes and I was unaware of anything or anyone around us.
“ Jared, Jared?” I snapped back to reality at his voice.
“ Yeah?”
“ I think you need to get out of the sun, it's beginning to fry your brain.”
“ yeah.” I answered in a spaced out voice as he opened the door allowing me a perfect view of his delectable ass, I felt a lump form in my throat and tried my best to swallow it.
“ I want you to go and lay down OK.” He said taking off his shirt a move that had me almost cumming in my pants. My cock seemed to get harder if that was possible and I made a mad dash for my room, closing the door behind me.
“ Jared?” His voice managed to sound so sensuous behind the closed door.
“ Yeah.”
“ I am in my room if you need me OK.”
“ Yeah thanks.” And as I heard him walk away I let out a sigh of relief. I knew how close I came to getting caught today, a sudden move to the left or right would have known just how much I needed him and with that thought I undone my pants and pulled out my cock.
I was so hard and so hot and I stroked myself with thoughts of sucking Jensen and of him fucking me into the mattress, what I wouldn't give to just have one night with him. But even as I stroked myself I knew one night would never be enough, not by a long shot and with that my erection went down and all I was left with was my naughty thoughts and no outlet to release them.
October 08th 2015
“ Chris I can't go so stop asking.”
“ Why not?”
“ How the hell is it going to look with me running around the night life with you when I am supposed to be resting up so that I can go back to work.”
“ Who cares, you need to get out of this fucking house and get back on your feet with your other friends, are you under house arrest or something?”
“ No but I am under doctors orders to stay close to home.”
“ Or maybe you don't want to leave your boyfriend alone, what are you afraid he might hook up with some chick while you are gone?”
“ Fuck you Chris.”
“ I only wish you would, get off your high horse Jared and come back down to earth. You need to get back into the swing of things, there are many legitimate gay men out there looking for someone like you but you are never going to meet them if you are always cooped up here.”
And even though the idea sounded fantastic, I knew I was not up for man hunting.
“ I'm not into it Chris, my heart isn't in it and you know what will happen if my heart's not in it.”
He rolled his eyes at me and came to sit by me on the floor.
“ I need a cigarette.” He said reaching into his pocket and pulling out a pack.
“ Not in here you don't.”
“ Mr Ackles not a smoker?” He asked eyebrows raised.
“ No and neither am I and while you are here, neither are you.”
“ Fine... whatever.”
I leaned into him and planted a big wet kiss on his cheek just as Jensen walked into the living room, he did not look to happy to see me and Chris together but didn't say anything choosing instead to head into his room and slam the door shut.
“ Somebody's jealous.” Chris chanted only to have me hit him as hard as I could.
“ Shut up or he will hear you.”
“ Uh that is so sweet.”
“ Christian.” I warned stepping over him to go and find Jensen and hopefully find out what was bothering him.
But as I approached his door he opened it and there we stood face to face.
“ You OK?”
“ Do I fucking look OK Jared?” He practically barked leaving me with a sense of dread.
“ Sorry.” I said trying to pass him but he grabbed my hand and pulled me to him so we were shoulder to shoulder.
“ No don't you dare fucking apologise Jay, I'm sorry... it's just that I am having a really rotten day and I should not be taking it out on you.”
“ Do you want to talk about it?”
He looked over my shoulder into the living room, no doubt looking at Chris.
“ I can ask him to leave.”
“ No... I just need some time to myself, no offence.”
“ None taken.”
“ Thanks... look I am going to take a ride out to the lake maybe spend the night at that little inn, are you going to be OK by yourself?” And even though I didn't want him to go, it was not my choice to make.
“ Yeah... are you sure you are OK Jen, maybe I should go with you.”
His eyes seemed to light up at the thought bit only for a second.
“ No.. I just need a time out, I will be back early.... maybe we could go for breakfast or something.”
“ Sure no problem.”
“ Good and if you want Christian to stay I don't...” He whispered this to me as if he were afraid to say it out loud.
“ No, he is leaving as soon as you do.” A smile graced his face at that and he leaned in and hugged me.
“ Thank you, your my best friend, you know that.”
“ Yeah.” my voice came out strained with emotion, he let go of me and gave me the once over as he walked passed me and out the door. Chris quickly ran up to me begging to know the details of our conversation.
“ You guys look like a fucking power house couple.”
“ Shut up.... it was.”
“ Nothing, bullshit Jared and you know it. Friends don't hold their friends like that.” And while it seemed strange that Jensen would allow such contact in front of Chris, I chalked it up to insecurities. He knew how much I had suffered because of Chris and to see me so carefree with him must have had his head spinning.
“ Say what you must but you have to go, I don't want Jensen to think that you and I are...”
“ Fucking, fooling around, doing the dirty.” He started to laugh and so did I.
“ Funny.... just get out of here and call me later.”
“ Will do baby.” And then he leaned into me and gave me that trademark kiss on the lips and for the first time in along time I felt like I wanted to reciprocate.
I waited around outside hoping to see him leave before I took off, I did not like the idea that Jared was spending all of his spare time with a guy like Chris and I would be damned if I would stand by and not say or do anything.
“ Still here?” he called as he walked to his car.
“ Yeah I am just checking my car for the trip.”
He nodded his head, looked over at me and then laughed.
“ What the hell is so funny?” I asked not liking the idea that he thought he had one up on me.
“ Nothing Mr Ackles, not a thing.” And as he went to get into his car I stopped him.
“ Do you have a second?”
Yeah and there it goes.” He said as he looked at his watch and I was just a couple of seconds away from hitting this prick.
Seeing that I was not amused he closed his door and stood tall as if he was challenging me. I could see that he was not going to even try to pretend to be friendly with me and I was glad for that because I did not like him one bit and he knew it.
“ What game are you playing?”
“ Excuse me?”
“ What game are you playing because you may have Jared dick whipped but you have not got me fooled one bit.”
“ Is there something you want to know Mr Ackles, like for instance if I am fucking Jared?” He said with a raised eyebrow and his words cut through me like a knife and it took all of my strength not too go off on him.
When I didn't answer he continued. “ Because if I was it would really be none of your fucking business, Jared is a grown man and believe me when I say he knows exactly what he wants and needs.”
“ You think you are so fucking sly, coming here acting like you give a damn about him and his feelings, well you might be fooling Jared but not me.”
“ Is that so.”
“ Yeah it is.” And just when I thought he would walk away, he did a double take and took it to the next level.
“ You have a lot of fucking nerve trying to talk down to me, especially after what you did to him.”
“ Excuse me.”
“ I don't even know what Jared sees in you because all I see is a fucking redneck thug with an attitude.” And it was as if all of my bottled up emotions came out and I was on Chris like a bull in a china shop, pounding the shit out of him. He tried to fight back but he was clearly smaller than me and if it was not for a police car driving by, I believe in my heart that I would have seriously hurt him or worse killed him.
At the end of it all, I was arrested and thrown in a jail cell and Chris was rushed to the hospital with a broken jaw and arm. And while my mind should have been on the bad press that this would cause, it instead chose to wonder what Jared's reaction was, he had missed the whole thing only coming out of the front door as I was flung in the back of a police car and Chris into an ambulance.
“ Jensen what the fuck happened?” Steve asked me which bought me out of my thoughts as he walked towards me.
“ I don't want to talk about it.”
“ This is no time for this bullshit, you are in some major trouble, you almost killed a man.”
“ Well I didn't.” My nonchalant attitude must have pissed him off as he picked up his case and made his way towards the door.
“ Steve I'm sorry.”
He looked back at me and shook his head walking over to me placing his hand on my shoulder.
“ What happened to you?”
“ I don't know... I just snapped, is he going to be OK?” I could hear my own voice cracking as I asked him that and tried my best to keep myself together.
“ He should be fine but this could go to civil court as well as criminal court, how could you let your temper get the better of you like that?”
“ I don't know Steve... I really don't know, I fucked up big time.”
“ Yes you did but don't worry we just have to wait and see if Christian Kane is going to press charges.”
And as Steve talked about what was to come if this went to trial, I thought about what Jared was thinking about me right now and then I thought won't that make for a peaceful sleep.
Chapter Five