I'm so envious of all of you ( Read more... )

I'm meant for so much more ( Read more... )

Tomarrow

I yearn for you
But I'm just another girl
How could this be?
When you were in love with me?
I pray everynight
For this feeling to leave
But I'm stricken with grief
Why am I still paying?
Was the crime so heinous?
Why did you make me this way?
It's so easy for everyone else
But day to day
It feels there's no way
To get to tomarrow

I'm really happy right now. Really really happy. I love all of my friends, and I feel special lately. Haha that is so lame sounding. . . but for the first time in a WHILE I'm just really happy. I haven't cried in a while. I really like this. To all my friends who are making me so much happier. . . you know who you are. And I love all of you so much ( Read more... )

The someone who hurt me very badly. because I always knew you were a bitch. i just liked you too much to admit it. Oh yea and I remember all those times I told you I was there, and the time when I invited you into my house, and gave you my food, and comforted you for over an hour because I loved you that much as a friend. It makes me feel good to ( Read more... )

I love the rain. I feel like it's as if God is crying. For all the pain and suffering in the world, God is recognizing it and crying for us. Then when I'm out there, crying, it's as if I'm crying with him. And no matter how much I cry, God masks it with his own tears. I can cry forever, and no one will ever know, it's raining. I'm soaked in God's ( Read more... )

I will let you all know this one thing, I never forget. I will hold a grudge longer then you can even hold a memory. Every action has a debt. For all my actions I've paid ten fold my debt. You have yet to pay. But oh how you will pay. It's coming, so deary you just wait. Because it could be tomarrow, it could be 3 years from now. But I never forget ( Read more... )

Why do my friends treat me like shit. I thought you were the neatest girl ever, how can you do this to me? How can no one realize how hard it is to heal when everyone is throwing shit in my face. Okay it's been a long time, but you don't just GET over shit. I'm on my way, and then you do this. You fucking bitch. I thought you were my fucking friend ( Read more... )

Hey I haven't updated in forever. I made the big big mistake of looking through my entire livejournal and bringing up all my past hurt. I blame all my pain on my bipolarness. It's not all that. I've been through so much shit. So many people have treated me bad, it's not all my fault. I've been so hurt by someone so close to me. Yea I hurt someone ( Read more... )

She's Fucking Nothing ( Read more... )