every single band i'd want to see in concert this year are touring Europe or Japan. Motherfuckers. It's my luck I presume...err.

So it happened again, on 420 of all days, after all of my grieving and my effort and after everything that I have done for him, he leaves again. I'm not as heartbroken this time, but now I know that I won't try again; he's gone. Try once, try no more when it comes to this, it will only end up in a vicious cycle. He confused me, too. He said "you ( Read more... )

I am looking foward to June the 9th so much, I hate junior year, a lot. It's not so much of life, it's more of the academic pressure, there are a lot of tests to be taken this year, very important tests. That and the social pressure has always been there, probably since 5th grade. I feel lonely most of the time, even if someone is around, maybe it' ( Read more... )

Ok it's the 11th. It's been pretty busy this past week, I had a comp on saturday, which was ok, we got 5th but what can you expect. Sunday was all homework and a damn bbq. I haven't done nething with my friends lately, or in about a week +. I assume that they are busy themselves and all that. I can't do anything with them this weekend, they have ( Read more... )

So maybe I'm not so much of a chickenshit as I thought. I walked to the post office today to get a couple of stamps. I just put one on the envelope and put it in the mailbox. I can say that it was a very nervous moment. I can't get that back now, it'll be in his hands by tomorrow, all I can do is wait. The box said that the mail is collected at 5, ( Read more... )

So today was ok...not the best, but ok. I did my daily thing, tried as hard as I could to focus on the class I was in, and go with my business as usual. I was in class quite often today with nothing to do but think. Thinking about what to say, what to do, how to act, what to expect. Will it be awkward? no..probably not. Will he reject my presence? ( Read more... )

Ok. Today is monday, meaning yesterday was sunday, meaning it was easter. I went to my dad's to have an easter/ amanda's birthday thingy. It was dandy, i got a few things, a good cake and the best damn ham i have ever had. I hung out with my cousin and my brother for a few and then i went home. For some odd reason, my stepmom is being really ( Read more... )