so
please
please
please
let me get what i want
lord knows it would be the first time

best summer of my entire life, but maybe its all settling in. its all hitting me again.
ive been high for 3 months and thought there was no coming down.
withdrawl a bitch, especially when reality is so fucking bitter.

something is wrong with me

whoaoaa

someplace between unsure and ahundredd.

take me away, take me far away from here.

settle little rapid beating heart, give time
for the mind
to catch you up.
you don't care anymore.

alphabetagamma wanna run free. down a hill with hair blowing in the wind. kissing the sky thankful that my shackles have been unkeyed.

i dont know what life is; what it means; or how its going to go.

but unselfishly, i really need this year to be amazing. a reassurance.

someone promise, everythings going to be okay?

as i gazed up at the stars i became conciously aware of my insignificance
and as i stood surrounded by lovers that actually understood,
for the first time in my life, my unworthiness felt okay.

i felt okay.
we can change the world.

summer days, summer daze
musty breaths and a smokey haze

.ladderssleepoverelockedkoutandagallonofmilk.bonfires.ashotdrinkor23.liesandimgettingbetter.

thats is what im given. seeming perfection. but the conflagrant cavity eating at my insides only blazes with more fire. upping the intensity throws me into a stage of restlessness;wrecklessness.

havent updated since the beginning of time

probably because i keep a real journal. yeah. a real journal.

lifes cool.

yeah. new friends. old friends. pacts. time. time.

give it time.

come disconnect the dots with me, poppet.

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well

here we go

get ready

random, but is anyone looking at any universities?

TEXAS owned. Pray for my G-pa.
i officaly have been to the lorreta lynn coutry kitchen.
Lor and Mist! i miss them!
Kyle. good walks. good talks. my big brother, man.. see him soon. yay. then another 7 months.

CHICAGO BOUND! MANUAL BOUND! YESSS.

anxiety.. ohh boy

downloaded new songs on iPod.

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