I am in love. For the first time.
and scared. scared of my mom, scared of getting hurt, scared of making a mistake.
But this love overcomes and turns that fear into excitement.
She is perfect.

I-am-so-happy

Impulse arrested spills over, and the flood is feeling, the flood is passion, the flood is even madness: it depends on the force of the current, the height and strength of the barrier.  The unchecked stream flows smoothly down it's appointed channels into a calm well-being.
-Huxley

 this is all too familiar.
i.
am.
scum.

I deserve this.

i might be going to hell, but i'll make sure my ride is first class.

 Everything has been going super fantastic lately. I just finished my math final and I already had an 88 in there, and in my anti-math brain that is pretty damn swell. Also, I entered one of my pots from ceramics into the art show at BCC and won first place. It gets even better: the prize was 3 credit hours towards school. This means I get to void ( Read more... )

if i had one, we'd be together.

laying on my belly, rubbing the top of my feet to the bare mattress. and i swear to god when you touched that part of my head where my hairline is. i wanted to scream

i aint yer pet.

I'm feeling close to people right now. Except I feel like there's glass between them and I.
Then again, some are breaking the glass and it's shattering all over me.
The others are just standing and smiling.

And the problem I'm having is distinguishing which style I like better.