It's funny to think that I use to post stuff to LiveJournal with knowing that someone would be reading it. Now I post and hope no one does ( Read more... )

It's a different kind of hurt to have the one who claims to love you more than anything not know when your sad and there's something wrong..
Or maybe he just doesn't care.

I think and put way more into this relationship than I should
And I've been thinking that more and more
:'(

I thought I'd be more excited getting ready to board my flight to Virginia but instead I'm crying in the terminal

I wish sometimes he was more understanding and made a bigger deal of the little things
I wish I could push harsh emotions aside and just embrace the moment

I wish that did not just end the way it did :(

Stop crying idiot.. They were just Christmas lights and they will be there next year.

Stop running to mike everytime something goes wrong.

How can love him the way I say I do but find it so easy to want to run away crying and call it quits everytime something doesn't end the way it does?

Stop crying. You fucking Panzy.

Merry Christmas and shit

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Just reading the first 2 paragraphs in my last entry makes me realize how bitter I am, and was and still .. am? I guess. I dont know. I am amazed by how easily I have let myself become to attached to Michael again. *sigh* If I were to count the posts that are about him, or involve him in some way... that would be a LOT of tallys. I still wouldn't ( Read more... )

You think I need to apologize? HAH! You could go fuck yourself in the ass but it wont ever reach. Thats the most hilarious thing I have heard in two years. I don't understand why people think I should apologize. Seriously? Do they think I care THAT much about their feelings?? Here's a hint. I DON'T. Especially Mikes. As much as I have been ( Read more... )

Is it a matter of we need time apart, or do we need time for just us somewhere so we cant be bothered.. Somewhere we can remember how we were first loved each other.. When we didnt fight. And we didnt argue. But if thats the case, does it mean our problems will just be waiting for us when we get back?? I don't know what to do anymore.. I miss how ( Read more... )

Am I even happy anymore? I think its becoming very debateable.

I'm so pissed off I could cry.