Writing everyday is harder than it would seem. God how I wish it were my only job ( Read more... )

A term stolen from one of my favorite series ( Read more... )

You asked for a sign ( Read more... )

These days this journal is just that. Me screaming into the void. Speaking to a future version of myself. One who has hopefully learned something from the girl/ woman who was before ( Read more... )

I really wanted to be married. I think I fooled myself into believing that it would actually make life easier ( Read more... )

It been four years. Four years that is, since I started to try to think about and plan and then actually MAKE a baby ( Read more... )

i want to crawl in a hole and die. I want an easy way to do it. I want it to happen now.

i dont have them.

not to tell colin to go fuck himself, and not to do what i want to do.

i have these moments where i am ok.

but mostly i wish i were dead.

i wish i could just be dead.

someone hit me with a bus.

It is not easy to get over love.

it isnt.

i keep trying. i try hard.

I am sitting here in the middle of the night listening to a storm. Reminded of Kansas. The thunder, the pouring rain. How long can this last ( Read more... )

Al  oof my friends are fucking married! They have nooooooo need to want to go out to find happiness outside of their own sad homesteads..... I want to fucking scream!

Please someone rescue me from this hell.