so was calculating about how much money i have in savings in all the accounts ( Read more... )

there's no words to describe feelings well enough. how do you speak what you feel? there are expressions, sure, but if expressions are perfect, why would people still need to turn words from a page into facial emtions to display the events ( Read more... )

i actually don't think i've been living for a while, it's been just hanging on, surviving. my mind hasn't been fully functioning for the last few months, only has been getting me to work, back home. i can't even muster up the energy to plan out things for church. well, it's more like i don't see myself being able to succeed in anything anyway so ( Read more... )

...what to do when the thought deserves more than a sentence? you go start a new journal article
so the more you repeat something, the more you'll believe it
i keep repeating that i'm depressed, so now, maybe it's time to repeat to myself that i'm not depressed
sounds easy
but when everything in life is against me, how
blah

you ask wua, there's another one coming ( Read more... )

oh, second entry this month, a more normal one, just another random thoughts time ( Read more... )

guess what? this will actually be a semi decent post, instead of the usual rant on no end til the randomness ends it all kind of post ( Read more... )

time to write, this time not really to vent. or maybe it is, but i don't think i can define this one as one of those late night bitch fest session yet. it's more to reflect on what happened and stuff. am i getting deep? no, it's just late enough. this wouldn't be a long post. at least not at this point ( Read more... )

what is the real purpose of vacation? People seem to always want to take time off and "get away". do they want to go see new places, or just escape their daily lives. sure, there are those that haven't taken any extended time off away from what they've been doing for a long time, but that's kinda the minority. and then there's those that are ( Read more... )

How many people am I bothering by posting this up. You're reading this when I'm most certain you have something better to do than to feel sorry for me. For such non issues ( Read more... )