i did very bad yesterday ( Read more... )

breakfast ( Read more... )

alright updattteee ( Read more... )

here's what i ate so far today, as of 9:45 ( Read more... )

so i havent been here for a while ( Read more... )

breakfast
1 cup plain yogurt: 82
1 cup blueberries: 83
1/4 rasin bagel: 60
1/2 tsp pb: 30
1/2 tsp cream cheese: 25

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inbetween
1 serving alphabet cookies : ( 120

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lunch
1 serving refried fat free black beans: 110
1 cup lettuce: 4.2
2 tbs salsa: 10
1/2 small tomato: 9
1 small tortillaL: 87 1/2 ( Read more... )

so much for keeping track of what i eat everyday...

breakfast
1 cup fat free milk -90
1 cup honey nut cheerios - 120

lunch
1/4 apple - 18
1 banana - 100
handful of pistacios - 50?
some watermelon- 30
1 cup lettuce- 5
6 slices of turkey ham- 60
mixed nuts- 43
fat free italian dressing- 45
1/2 bagel- 110

snack 1/2 puff pastry ( Read more... )

i have this underlying tension between so many people and by that i mean my family and my friends. my parents and i, me and rob, me and teachers, me and ___ +23894875289347982458235892345 other people. its just so fucking weird. i dont know how to explain it but damnit why cant i tell them exactly whats on my mind and burn/mend the bridge? ( Read more... )

so i havent been here for a while. it used to be a place where i explored my inner negativity and caused myself somewhat, irreversible damage to myself (in all aspects of exisitence). but whatever, thats over. if you happen to stumble across this and know me personally, well this is as raw and truthful as i will probably ever be 'publically'. if ( Read more... )