I'm a big chubby idiot.

I'm giving up.
I'm scared to death.
I'm losing it.
My head constatly hurts.
And my stomach is in knots.

"And she still wonders why I'm so insecure..she giggles because I sleep with a body pillow" - atmosphere

.I don't know ( Read more... )

I can't stop thinking about you.
Amish you a lot.

...I've had a string of bad luck lately..hopefully it'll get better..I'm still laid off..which sucks because I'm starting to realise that a trip in may to see jen is probly not gonna happen..I'm still trying to see if I can do something an make it happen..but I don't know..

I hope I can go..i

I wish there was something I could do.

I can't stop thinking about it..
Lately I've been buying things and surrounding myself with things that remind me of it..
I miss it all..
Every little thing..
It was me at my happiest.
I wanna return to that..

I can't help but feel miserable.

I still feel that its worth it..

I still am having a really hard time falling asleep at night...it seems like I jus lay there for hours with the tv off and whaever and I jus sit there with my eyes closed or ill stare up at my ceiling hopeing that my eyelids will start to feel heavy and jus fall down soi I can go to sleep..but it doesn't seem to happen until maybe an hour or 2 ( Read more... )

But I feel like there's something wrong..