everything was so awful. but then it got better. it really did, i felt as though things were going to be okay. but of course that doesn't last. and an hour later i received one of the most upsetting phone calls i could have received. and then an hour later from that, i am here. just sitting here trying to figure out what the fuck is going on ( Read more... )

wow holy shit i really don't think things have ever been this bad, as well as me not want to be here so much. i really just want to peace the fuck out. it started two months ago. i'm not over the fact that thom isn't here anymore. he's just in the hospital, it's okay. i'm in denial. everything went downhill for me after that. i really just ( Read more... )

so i should be finishing up cleaning my room but i have really bad add so it takes me forever to do anything and everything so here i am sitting on my bed writing in my live journal ( Read more... )

right now i want to die.

happy birthday mommy ( Read more... )

holy shit prom

thank you for everything mama

rest in peace.

lolol so silly.

im so glad i got to see so many people so far today and more later :)

it's been a long time since the last time i updated this fucking thing & like, wow. a lot has changed since the last time i wrote in here. i started to again because heather just did, and that reminded me "hey... i have a lj too. and instead of keeping all of my emotions locked up in here, why not put them out? get them out? release them?" so here ( Read more... )