i almost didn't do it.

i pushed open the door and stepped inside, with my gaze firmly fixed on the floor. i had to do this in very small steps. and when i say i had to, i mean that i didn't seem capable of doing anything but.  slowly i lifted my head. he was all the way across the room, on a gurney, blue sheet pulled up to his neck, arms folded ( Read more... )

all the things are in my head and i want- need? to get them down. i feel like sometime later i will want to know what was here or happening. even though not much of what i am observing can maybe even be trusted.

when susan told me my response was No. that's it. like a child. like i could stop it from being true by just speaking it into to existence ( Read more... )

Journey: mom why are you picking at your cuticles?

Me: bad habit.

Her: you've literally created your own problem.

Me: I know, her name is journey

Her: I'M LEAVING AND I'M TAKING THE DOG

what she said: emotional issues

what i heard: marshmallow shoes

what she said: sharpie

what i heard: shrimp feet

Avalon always gives the best game answers.

Julius: Ringo was in which band?

Avalon: how would I know?

J: um because they are arguably the most famous band in history

A: oh! Metallica!

...another great gem from that same game:

julius: ( Read more... )

so this past weekend at my 18th camp hollywood, in my 25th LH year, i had a come to jesus moment with myself, an epiphany, a paradigm shift, a what felt like a visceral change in mindset. unfortunately for me it's not any sort of life altering, brand new advice but in fact the simplest, most hokey, shitty inspirational poster pap out there, and it ( Read more... )

what i heard: do you know that feeling of used toothpaste?

what she said: did you know that Seawings use toothpaste?

A: "this boy in my class called me 4 eyes today and i said 'wow, thanks! i love wearing glasses so i say it's a compliment.'

... besides, i have 2 more eyes than him, so i'm like half spider. so there."

rectuluntly (reluctantly) (A)

bayhyooglaze (bagels) (A)

pewsuhdoefurreen (pseudoephedrine) (J)

levee stross (levi strauss) (J)

what i am about to write is probably the most embarrassing thing i have ever recounted, and i'm still a little traumatized. but i fully recognize how much worse it could have gone, and that makes me really feel like God had a hand here. or i'm just. that. lucky.

gonna try and go chronologically here, but trust me that it's all related.

1) last week ( Read more... )

avalon's favorite sweatshirt is from Yosemite, even though she's never been there. the other day she asked me where her Yo-Semite sweatshirt was. After my eyes widened, she quickly said.... "Yose.... mighty?"

"What's that fish that eats people... the purr-ah-hana? What about the dinosaur that flies? The.... para-doctile? And that other dinosaur, ( Read more... )