i feel like i'm under so much pressure. that people expect me to be something that well.. what if i'm just not. what if i'm not special, i'm just some normal girl putting off a simple life of normal boring normalcy. i feel like people expect too much of me from both sides. i'm sick of things being expected, of thigns being needed, wanted of me ( Read more... )

everyone's just waiting for it to happen, they all know its only a matter of time. one of these days all my bad habbits will catch u with me and i'll just get kicked out of school. u'd think that that would be motivation enough. you'd think my whole life would be motivation enough, and i just.. cant. i dunno. i feel like i'm a complete failure, ( Read more... )

I do not believe that this world is a fair place, but i do believe that most if not all things happen for a reason. Even if sometimes i feel like the road i'm on is completely different than what i exected, i've once again begin to feel at times that i'm where i should be, and that there would have been no other way. what i do not believe, and ( Read more... )

So this was supposed to be the thie first weekend in my new exciting, jet setter way of life. Things were shaping up to be pretty damn nice i must say. i actually enjoyed the drive "home" on friday. the new way i took that takes me directly through the dells is a BEAUTIFUL route!!! so many gorgeous countrysides, and lakes, and omg the rivers ( Read more... )

i smiled today, and for the first time in what feels like a very long time there was meaning behind it. I feel like i'm slowly starting to come back into the world and back to life. being excited for things, being excited for my life is a luxury i dont often get and i dont care how much anyone wants to try and take that from me they cant. i get ( Read more... )

i've been thinking to much lately. when my life becomes dull, i think, i analyze, i try and ut energy into things in vain hope of something catching my fancy long enough to put some sort of meaning into sunshine. i'm always tired but never sleepy... today all i've wanted to do since i woke up was go back to bed, but no, and i'm so week and ( Read more... )

POOR CUSTOMER SERVICE SKILLS AND HEALTH INSURANCE LINGO AT THE ASS CRACK OF DAWN PISS KARI OFF

i'm totally watching the movie peter cottontail!!! i cant wait for spring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck this snow bussiness. i'm going to go dye eggs

i feel like i have bubbles in my brain, like its a headache but.. bubbles i dunno its weird, and i'm scared to sleep but i'm sooo tired... if for some reason i dont wake up, i love you all, and all that jazz.. going down to the scary basement now to try and sleep

oh dr phill ( Read more... )