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now i cry. gahhhh. gahhhhhhhh gah gah.

once again. i day like before. where i look at myself and sicken myself.

i can't wait forever.

i do blame myself for everything, i blame myself also for everythinggggg. and everything.

why aren't things just going right for me? why aren't they going my way? i want this to be over with. cause nothing is getting better at all.

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now theres another song of me and stevens that was made into a video: sidewalks

my dad did what he did last night but to extreme worsts. so i just stayed awake a 5 and here i am. eh. but im eating popcorn chicken with katchup and chocolate milk!!! i still have hw, but oh well...

happy bday florida booooyyy!

heres to a good day!

so yesterday was alright. it wasn't the halloween i hoped for. maybe next year.... it was good i guess though. i've been hanging out with brad everyday since.... i don't know. i miss sarah and that's all i think she wants me to say, even though she probably doesn't like that. o'm itchin for a movie night.

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my happiness keeps on dropping.
so i try more.
and ruin everything more.
and in the end blame myself again.
for ruining my life, and i guess yours too.

EDIT: i cry too much. i am now. im trying to hold back, but wow. you are only my friend out of pity. i guess i'm alone. i am so fricken sad.

because i'm lame and i wasn't online yesterday:

happy birthday RUBY!!!

well... yesterday was my birthday. it was for some parts good, some parts horrible. if it wasn't my birthday yesterday then it would have been horrible but my "it's my birthday" momentum kept me happy.

should i write about it late? i must... and i have to do homework. eh. i feel ( Read more... )

hey. tomorrows my birthday. i want it to be good. it's ruby's too. be sure to give her much love.

today was sarahs. she really deserved all the things she got. i might be jelous, but i hope she knows good things come to those who deserve, or however they spell it.

today was good. we ate a place and got the weirdest happy birthday song. i got a ( Read more... )

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