today i spoke for the first time is ages. i spoke about things i haden't in along time. i spoke to people i had let down, not so much let down, but i know now how much less of me they think. it is funny how time changes things, distances people grow and how fond people once were of eachother now they just seem distant and cold. i spkoe for the ( Read more... )

oh my goodness. it has been oh so long since i have updated this bad boy! well. i have added about 2 or 3 relationships, a few fights, and a lot of alcohol problems since. hahaha. well i am moving back to brentwood this saturday, i am looking forward to it as well. heather and i have decided that sundays our our days to spend together tanning by ( Read more... )

everyone says they will stay friends, and indeed some will. but as time passes, and we hang out again, i find we are growing more and more apart. this is not dedicated to one specific friend of the past, this a simple statement. i have noticed that i have changed, my priorities have changed, my life has seemingly changed as well. now it is not just ( Read more... )

i dont remember the last time i felt this alone. for once in my life i just wish people would not tell me things they dont mean ( Read more... )

I come home tomarrow!!

i am in a solum state. it is werid searching through myspace, finding people you havent seen in awhile. it is werid knowing that there are new kids who party down town and wander down town, and experience things we experienced. now i dont know why this is so werid for me, but it is. and it is odd to me that people we once did this with are almost ( Read more... )

sidenote: Today in Wednesday the 17. I go home in 5 days ( Read more... )

I had a dream. it was a beautiful dream. all my friends got along even if they came from different places and had differnet views of things of life. i had this dream saturday night. we all played in the snow. for some reason i feel that if i were to have this big birthday party or just like a big bbq, i dont think all my friends would get along ( Read more... )

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well talk about shitty. i am writting a fucking paper and my comp shuts off. and well i am not going to write it now. i am going to write it tomarrow and the highest grade i can get is a c and i am okay with it. that is what i get ladies and gentlemen for waiting the last minute. so congrats ashley for procrastinating.