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I feel so overwhelmed with life sometimes. Sometimes it's my personal bubble that overwhelms me and sometimes it's the larger picture. It feels like even if I can manage to fix my personal bubble that the rest of the world is crappy and awful and there's no point in anything. I used to not care before I had a child, screw it if the world blows up. ( Read more... ) -
Stolen Dreams
Is a person really your friend if they constantly steal your dreams? What kind of person listens to you share all the things you wish you could do/have if your circumstances were different and then does them all and rubs them in your face? Things they clearly never wanted until suddenly it was a way to hurt you? I suppose I've learned too late to ( Read more... ) -
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You think life can't get worse and it does. I don't want to know what's in store.
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On Having An Only
I saw this quote on a blog. I don't know who wrote it but I thought it was so appropriate for everyone that thinks I'm scarring my child by choosing to have only one child ( Read more... ) -
You Were Wrong
I'm pretty sure when you decided to leave this world, you figured we would all miss you for a while and then we would go on about our lives. You were wrong ( Read more... ) -
Dreams
Two nights in a row I've dreamed of you. In the first dream I was with your family in PR and I was the only one who could see you. You were so happy and cracking jokes like you always did. You seemed happy to be dead. I guess that's fitting.
In the second dream I was trying to keep you from jumping off different buildings. It's strange, I just had ( Read more... ) -
Stuffed Grape Leaves
And now for something completely random and slightly gross ( Read more... ) -
Tears
I feel like I've cried for years...but it's only the fourth day. I want to stop crying but I'm so terrified of stopping. I don't want to forget. Someday my son will see me looking at old family pictures and he'll ask me who that man is...to him it will be like he never existed. My little son has lost so many family members in his short little life ( Read more... ) -
Hormones
I've never been one to be grossed out by things. I used to have a sick twisted attraction to blood and gore and was never phased by watching those reality ER/surgery shows. In fact, I decided to go to nursing school because of this fascination. I figured, why not put my interest in guts and gore to good use? I ended up dropping out of nursing ( Read more... ) -
Lightning
Can't sleep, there's too much exciting lightning in the sky!!! There have been some lightning storms since we moved which in my lightning deprived little mind were amazing...but this seems epic to me!! The sky has been flickering on and off like a lightbulb on the fritz for an hour now! The sky goes from being pitch black to "mid afternoon cloudy ( Read more... )