why do you hate me now?...ok maybe not that harsh, but why does it always feel like you don't want anything to do with me anymore? is something wrong? i'm confused ( Read more... )

i've snapped. i didn't sleep again last night. i think i've reached a solid 48 hours and no sleep. i'm on my 16th or so wind... i don't feel tired and i don't feel like sleeping. and yet i feel that i must just to stay alive... shitty

my goodness i never use livejournal anymore. but whatever, i guess my life has just been one huge whirlwind of crazy lately. i have no idea what is going on in my own life, i hate to think what it looks like to someone else. shit i feel sorry for my friends and family, they must be fucking confused when it comes to me. i guess i am hoping that ( Read more... )

eww. i hate being addicted to things, or in love with them, or obsessed, or really like, wanting, anything else you can think of that falls along those lines. it makes me sick, like...eww, pukey sick. it's gross.

so i am staying with cool grandparents now. so so so excited about that! the weekend was very interesting. i have two more tings i cross off my before i die list. number one, i went bargain shopping in another state. it was super cool and i got some awesome shirts. number two, i did mushrooms. holy shit!! that was freaking awesome!! i went to a ( Read more... )

this moring i woke up to my cousin doug standing over me with a fake rifle in his hands...W.T.F?!?! what a fucking way to wake up huh? it scared the crap out of me, cause i thought the door was locked, but it wasn't. so, he woke my ass up and made me go with him while he dropped a job application off. then we went down all these random dirt roads ( Read more... )

BORED!! I AM SOO BORED!!! i cannot wait until i get to come home! it sucks out here. i have nothing to do all day long. i am going crazy. i am cooped up indoors all day...i am like a house pet. now i know why they run away all time. my dad bought me new luggage for my trip to new zealand. it has wheels! i am soo excited! i cannot wait to use it. ( Read more... )

i feel soo...gross, dirty, yucky, whatever you name it, i am it. the freaking pipes are all clogged up, so no showers or toilet at all yesterday. thankfully my father fixed that pesky little problem with a rented roto rooter!! ahh, what a wonderful invention. i have still to take a shower today. just haven't had the time. i have been stressing over ( Read more... )

Damn! i forgot to make it friends only! well from now on it is, so beware!!!!

i have decided that i am never getting married and having children unless i find someone who i know for sure i will be able to spend the rest of my life with no matter what! whew, that was a long one! well ever since the stupid journal readind incident, this family has been having more problems than a freaking episode of jerry springer! i am still ( Read more... )