Things have changed so much, I promise it will get better. That is what I keep saying "it wont always be like this" I dont want to feel like this anymore. I have to though for awhile longer. I know this doesnt make sense to anyone but me but that is how it is supposed to be. Im sorry I dont want to make it any harder for you but this is the hardest ( Read more... )

Im scared. This is hard, a lot harder then I ever thought it would be. This is what I want, what i've always wanted and when youre not here I dont feel like myself. I feel like I cant ever tell anyone how I really feel I keep it locked up for so long and then I dont know what else to do but explode. The next problem being I cant even let it all ( Read more... )

I feel like people always give off this false hope that they are so much better then they really are. I think life has become a joke to some people, it blows my mind how stupid people can be how low they can sink. My whole life i've been searching for reasons and slowly but surely im finding them. I cant say im impressed with any of the things i' ( Read more... )

this is the grace that only we can bestow
this is the price you pay for loss of control
this is the break in the bend
this is the closest of calls

Nothing feels okay anymore, even though im so happy with what im doing it all just feels wrong. I am missing something and its killing me because I dont know what it is. [ordoi]? I talk like i've got it all figured out like everything will happen just how I want it to but it hasn't so far so why should it start now? This is when things start to ( Read more... )

Well I said i'd never do this again but one day you'll have to realize that this is it.

Somedays I hate everything.

If it makes you happy, then I am fine.

I am so lost.

Knowing what I can make it through is what keeps me going & not knowing whats going to happen is what keeps me afraid but everything else just keeps me wondering.