So, the love of my life lost his father on Wednesday morning. And what good am I? NONE ( Read more... )

So, just a slight update. So many things have happened. Some of them very good, some of them very bad... Sad even. i am back with Brian, which is so fantastic. I am very happy. He seems to be happy with it too. I am trying to simmer down my controlling nature, but I am still growing. I love him though, and I am going to do the best I can to be the ( Read more... )

It's been a long few weeks, folks. Car got broken into twice, if you could call it that. First time my wallet was stolen, second time they actually tried to jack my car and my GPS was stolen... Really lame. My room mate lost his job, so I am dealing with that financial situation right now (though from the way he says his interview went today, he ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I have posted here, but I love it. I need to keep up with it more, but sometimes you don't have much to say and you need to let time and event accumulate before you have anything worth posting. Sometimes i think it's odd to keep a journal online in the first place, but really, life is like a story anyway, so why not?

I  ( Read more... )

I think I get it! I think I am very close to seeing how I want to start the new year! And how to keep it going. I am almost there to realizing exactly what I want my life to be. I am so stupid to have pussy-footed around it for so long. Lol. I feel a little changed today. like I am not so unsure and what not. Yay!!!! I hope I am right! If so, ( Read more... )

So at this point, I don't know where things are going. Zach and I got into a big fight (I guess fight is the best word) a few days ago, then at the end of the night, we decided to start over. Well, he decided it. Brian and I argued last night before he left for his trip today. *sighs* I don't know where things are going or what they are going to be ( Read more... )

So this mornign has been something of a flat note. I don't really know what to say or what will happen. But I guess not caring would make it easier to deal with.. Can I even not care when it pretains to zach or brian? Maybe.. if I try really hard.

Zach says we are okay.. I hear it but I don't feel like I see it. Maybe I am blind. Suppose i will ( Read more... )

hey everyone

Most of you who will find me, know me. Nice to see you seeing my journal again. I have gotten myself into a lot of trouble since I last posted anything here. And I am starting up live journal again because Brian still does it, and it's something I remember loving to do with him back and forth when he was in college and I was still in ( Read more... )