i dont understand why i CONSISTANTLY do this to myself when i know its going to hurt and not just hurt like "ouch" ok the end but hurt to the point where you just can not bear it any longer and you curl up and just cry and cry and cry

so in conclusion:

i hate myself

im an emotional wreck

im an immature asshole

and i think i should probably just ( Read more... )

I CANT DO THIS ... i dont want you to leave .... =(

this is SO sad what am i going to do?!?!?!?

i needed this weekend more than anything.  in the world. :)

its 2 o'clock in the fucking morning and im so pissed off that i cant sleep. god fucking damnit.

i was going to post that thing about kissing but then i realized i would get really upset if jay did it .... so lets just say i had more then timmy, less then lauren ... since they are both on my friends list and right next to eachother so i can compare.

<3

I LOVE MY PUPPAY SO MUCH <33333333333

also a few other things:

• if you still read this journal leave me a comment
• I saw caroline this week and it made me sooooo happy <3 even though i was dying when i saw her
• i talked to emily and i realized she knew ropke and it was kool. and i miss her. but summers coming soon so yay
• i havent talked to pete in ( Read more... )

i am just so tired - i cant wait for this year to be over.

Would you ( Read more... )

you know, adults always told me i was intuitive ..... and i really never gave it much thought ... but i find it really really scary how good my senses are sometimes. go instincts. or not? cus sometimes i just dont want to know.

w/e time for beer.

anything written here is only what i can remember at the second i read the question cus i cant think farther then that right now - so yeah ( Read more... )