my heart hurts.

i don't know where my relationship is going. some days im totally ready to throw in the towel & then others i dont want to think about not being with him. but that idea is looking more & more like a possibility everyday. im just not happy & it hurts, a lot. i dont know what to do with myself. & i have absolutely nobody to talk to ( Read more... )

that aformentioned pot of coffee i made? yea, just drank it all.

i feel a little nauseous.

oh well.

it's friday, & i really want to do something. something. ANYTHING. i think i'm gunna go home, take a shower, & get dolled up. but knowing my life, i'll just end up sitting at home. all fancied up with nowhere to go. *sigh*

hm. work has been kicking my ass lately. it seems like all im doing is working. but i cant complain because whn i get my checks its all been worthwhile ( Read more... )

God. I'm sorry. I think I've been more sorry in my life than anything else. it seems like everytime i turn around im feeling apologetic for some action that went wrong. granted, my apologies are only expressed in the paper or online form & never in real life, so what type of apology is that? but i digress ( Read more... )

SO. I KNOW I PROMISED TO WRITE IN THIS MORE. & LIKE MANY OF MY OTHER PROMISES, THIS ONE SORT OF SLIPPED INTO THE SHIT PILE. BUT IM PULLING IT OUT. BECAUSE LAST NIGHT IN CLASS, A REVELATION HIT ME: I NEVER WRITE ANYMORE. HOW SHITTY IS THAT. I USED TO WRITE CONSTANTLY. SO IVE DECIDED TO DUST OFF THESE FINGERS & GET BACK TO WORK. MIND YOU, IM NOT ( Read more... )

well, first entry in a new journal.... how exciting, huh?

well i`m sorry to say that the first groundbreaking entry shant be that long... i`ve come upon my second bottle of champagne & am about to climb into a nice hot jacuzzi bath with my love.... so ta ta!<3