um. so much to update. erica came home for the weekend. i fought with people, made friends with people, fucking watched a cicada nymph come out of its "shell". got the best "presents" ever from erica. omg. seriously ( Read more... )

god, i'm bumming so goddamn hard right now. it fucking sucks. i dont want it to happen, but i'm wallowing in my own bullshit. fuck. i'm alone right now, and i dont want to be. because the last person i want to be with is me. i fucking make shit complicated for everyone else. people i thought i could trust i cant. people that can trust me wont even ( Read more... )

sammy died. i tried. it was a few days too late. shoulda taken him when he still had the energy to suckle from the mom. he wouldnt even do that today. i shoulda known, but, if i didnt try, i'd feel way worse. today me and gary woke up and he dissappeared for a bit so i went under the deck ( its a high one), looking for him and he was there and told ( Read more... )

hahaha. i just got a haircut and i look like crap. awsommeeee.

its funny. i have times when i dont update or check anyones updates in forever and then i have all this catching up to do. some of you should write more. its the only way i know shit that goes on ( Read more... )

hey heart.

stop beating so hard.

you're just wasting yourself.

it still feels up in the air.

i feel like i don't have any friends right now.

i do it to myself.

i hate not showering. i cant yet though cause i havent worked out yet and when i sweat i get nizasity. so my hip bones are coming out again. not sure why. i havent really worked out that much. whatever. i'm cool with it. i lost like 20lbs last summer in like two weeks. that wasnt from working out though. that was from lameness ( Read more... )

so i took a really nice nap today. when i woke up i was like lets go check if the camera is outside. they normally leave it in the garage or next to the garage door. nope. bummer. so then i get online for a sec and check the fed ex tracker, and it said left on the porch. so i check the front porch, and there it is. ( along with a sign that says go ( Read more... )