near nostalgia

[youenvyme7x]

some memories always stay with us. i read once that smells invoke memories the easiest, and now that it's getting warmer and i step outside one such memory sticks out firmly in my mind. it was i think two summers ago and it was the greatest period of change that i have ever encountered in my life. the guys i saw changed me, my new group of

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this is molls

[anonymous]

it seems like people get upset when other people in their lives change. I dont understand why people think change is such a bad thing. Everytime you change, whether "good or bad", you are just moving one step closer to becoming the person you were destined to be. the best thing about u shaun, is that you can see exactly where and when you became the person you are now, and the people that helped you get there. I wish i could. You remind me of a homosexual, male, Kerry Bradshaw. (ps, i love her too)

Re: this is molls

[youenvyme7x]

thank you, no one ever comments on my serious posts. i seriously didn't ask you to or anything like that. i love kerry bradshaw and it means a lot that you know me that well. i think change is an amazing thing. it can be great or it can be tragic but it's almost always necessary in life.

[letitbe920]

Shaun, you know something? I most definitely agree with Mollie, and I have a few things I'd like to add.

I feel lately...because I've been changing and growing as a human being...like I'm gradually losing my grasp on who I am. I feel like...where's the Boris I used to be, and used to know, and used to love?

The truth is...when all is said and done...you will value change, whether good or bad. It will help you to shape who you are. That's what I'm looking forward to.

Maturing is a wonderful thing, Shaun. Your gift, as well as knowing why you are who you are, is that you know where you're going. Deep down inside, you know exactly where you're going and NOTHING is going to stop you from getting there.

You know? You also realized your faults, and the negative changes that have been made in your life. Since you know, you can correct this and become an even better person for it.

Bravo, Shaun, this soul-searching will get you far.

[youenvyme7x]

thank you it's unusual for me to be complimented on the person i am and it's a nice switchup. i do a lot of soul searching and i'm a lot more abstract than most people think. i'm been pegged as an abercrombie brainless follower and i want so bad for people to realize who i really am. i'm not slutty i'm not all about labels i'm just real.

this is molls

[anonymous]

i dont think you are that hard to get. Most people are just too self centered to have an actual conversation with a person that does not involve the latest gossip. Me and you have had so many heart to hearts, and it hasnt taken me long to at least understand you. You are a normal human being, and all humans really want is to be loved for who they are. And if people would take the time, they would all love you shaun, cuz you have so much to offer.

Re: this is molls

[youenvyme7x]

ha if only people saw that. no it's fine. i was just thinking about some of the conversations we have had about dating, and i think relationships are truly one of the best possible experiences whether good or bad. i think back to these guys and how much that one month affected me a lot. when you're young and naive, especially in the gay community, you date older people and you learn a lot. that's what these two did for me. i wonder if i was that sort of figure to anyone and if i was i hope i handled it well. it just frustrates me to see the younger guys walking around thinking they are the hottest shit and that they're perfect. i realize they'll learn otherwise but it's hisheartening to not be able to communicate with any of them because i can't stand them. i guess i'll be going to college in not too long so it doesn't matter but still.