but i'm still living eating and breathing.
so thats good,
its been years since i posted on this thing
i probably have no idea what i last posted about or when
but oh well,
my fridays nights have consisted of games, and eating out after
it was fun
my [F4] boiis made it to cif
i'm super excited for them
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so my life has been pretty much hell..
and i cant pour out here 
cuz he wont read it
i dont know what to do 
cuz everyone says he'll realize he lost something great
but what if i wont be there
or what if he doesnt realize it..
i'm so lost..so i finally wrote something today..
and i guess i'll finish with it.

what happened

i wish you could tell me you loved ( Read more... )

ughh life is still tough..its like eating ice cream for five and a hlf months then your ice cream melts and you dont get it anymore...but my days are getting brighter...slowly...really slow..but whatever...anyways today i spent like the whole day after school with bonnie...even after practice...and little john to and they just make me laugh..and it ( Read more... )

so its officially over its not a break and i should feel like shit cuz i loved him and apparently it wasnt the same the other way around but i just want my best friend back and thats all..i dont want an us..and i dont want a boyfriend yet..but for now thats it
happy easter everyone
=]

so me and him wont say names are on a "break" but in my eyes "breaks" are forever unless the person who "broke" it un"breaks" it..anywho i'm actually taking it a lot better..surprisingly..no one needs to leave town yet...i've spent most of my spring break with bonnie and jamie and i love it...i even called them up today in the middle of my crisis ( Read more... )

nothing to update on
life is at its worst now
so why even bother sharing right>
riiight.
thank god i have great friends to hold me up when i'm falling down

bonnie jamie..all of them..thats all i can thank anyone for right now..and my family as well..

its...
love.

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no update for like a month..can you say i've been busy?
fuudge i hate the busy life..it sucks
swimming seasons off to an alright start
i placed second in the 200 medely relay
and 5th on the 50 back =/
but hey cant win em all
umm other than that..nothing new
me and the b/f are good
me and the bff's are even better
and thats all
peeeace <3

so valentines day..

was DOPE cuz my fucken boyfriend is fucken DOPE!

and yea so heres how it went down right...saturday was our day for the boys and that went well..then ok valentines day came around and like i've never had a boyfriend or a real boy valentine n shiiiiii and anyways i was like ok nik..dont expect to much cuz its never happened ( Read more... )