i'm the shit.

 there has got to be something wrong with me.
there has got to be something missing.
i have no idea what it is.
but it has got to be something huge.
i do not feel right.

hate is a strong word. and so is love.

but i think the only people you are capable of hating are also the ones you love. there's a fine line. strong feelings will go both ways.

 AHHH I HATE IT HERE SO MUCH.

it is so against my nature to just sit at home and do nothing or go somewhere and sit and not do anything. i like going out and i like people and i like partying and i like staying up late. and i miss doing all those things. and i miss my friends. its making me crazy! i need to do somethinnnnnnnnnng

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i'm HATING IT RIGHT NOW

i love summer.
i love being out of high school forever.
i love that i'm almost 18. FINALLY.

i hate car accidents.
i hate that my car is almost totaled and how much it is going to cost to fix it and how long it is going to take.
i love that my black eye is gone but i hate that my face is broken haha.
at least i get good painkillaas.

may 18, 19, 20 - downtown hoedown
may 31 - prom (?)
june 6 - last day of school
june 9 - graduation
june 30 - grad party
july 31 - my bday :]

good stuff.

stress ughhhhh where is this coming from?!

have you ever had something so good happen to you that you (almost) wished it had never happened, just because you never wanted it to end?