i am soooo fucking pissed. my mom thought it would be a good idea to read everything i wrote in my journal. she thinks i have a "problem" and wants to send me to rehab. not only that but now i am grounded too! i dont understand what i did so wrong. yes i drink, but its better than what i was doing before. and its not like i drink and drive. so ( Read more... )

so much has happened during spring break that i cant type it all.... so i will make highlights....

*worked for parents to make some money with matt

*went to a party and got fucked up

*spent the night at mikes (good times)

*got drunk - many times

*had a campout with matt last night

*got fucked up there

*spend every day with matt so far..... and ( Read more... )

matt and i just told my teacher we had to get a project out of my car, and went to 7-11. it was exciting ( Read more... )

its been a mega boring weekend. but for spring break i might be able to go either to the beach or camping with mike matt and sarah! i am excited. that means my parents trust me again. i dont want to blow it this time. i think (or hope) i wont though! i think its cool they are lettin me do this. that means alot to me. i cannot blow it. but knowing ( Read more... )

today has been an aweful day! i know this is going to sound bad but matt has not called me. he told me friday that he would call me on sat. and i still have not herd from him. and thats not like him at all. the last time he did this it was cuz he got sent to rehab. and i am suuuper scared. i dont want that to happen. and i know that on fri he was ( Read more... )

TEST TIME ( Read more... )

so this is going to sound really weird. you know how people say they are high off of life. well yesterday i felt so happy, and today i feel like total shit. so its kinda the same as if last night i was on E or something and then today i woke up and it was a bad day. it sucked. i thought today would feel like yesterday. guess nothing good really can ( Read more... )

(X)- I HAVE done it ( Read more... )

first off....... Jul bear (thats your new name) if i come to Philly i will def see you. i miss you mucho. as i miss everyone there. i really want to come visit. it sucks here in maryland. let me tell  you.

so today was amazing. i dont know how any day could be amazing with school involved (especially since i went to every class) but it really was a ( Read more... )

tonight was good. i went out for pizza with matt, went to therapy, went to get new shoes, went to mikes, went to kennys. it was a good night minus therapy. my therapist thinks its aweful how i smoke every now n then... i am dieing because of it. cuz its some horrible thing that no one does. which is total pish posh. idont accept. and then she told ( Read more... )