I would like to apologize in advanced to anyone who is reading this pathetic excuse for a so called life.

I am getting sick of this thing. It just reminds how much I can't fucking stand to put up with myself. I really don't know how anyone could. I can't remember the last time I heard anything from any of my "friends". I've tried calling almost ( Read more... )

I have felt blank and vacent all day so far. She has a special way to make me feel that way. With the first call she set me up for the downfall with the second call. I always let her do that to me. It's funny to me that I learned my strength from her. Also, I inheritated her weakness and insanity from her. I hate going to school when I am like this ( Read more... )

While I was standing outside the library ay school I noticed that about 30 people walked in and out. The thing that amazed me was that all but about 2 used the automatic handicaped doors. It amazes me that so many people are that lazy. They can't just use the little extra strength to open a door?

I'm lost in my insanity
the misery you put me through
tearing away the feelings I had
A fear from myself

Some may think that sitting around doing nothing for a week and having someone do anything you ask them to is wonderful. WRONG! I can't stand it anymore. Sitting around not being able to do anything I havn't been to work or school all week. I havn't had a cigarette in about three days. Pneumonia sucks. I hate sleeping all day. I don't know ( Read more... )

OMG! DITA VON TEESE ON AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL!!

Evertrhing just has me so stressed out right now. Between the two jobs I work and full time at school I can't seem to get anything done. I am slacking off at Little Daddy's by calling off or begging someone else to close for me. I am behind in almost every class scrambling last min. to get any homework or papers done. I seem to just be chronicly ( Read more... )

I need to find a place that I can dissappear. I feel kinda stupid right now for some things that have been going on. Maybe everyone eles was right but I still don't want to believe it. So if I do end up dissappearing for a while don't worry about it. Maybe I just can never feel content with anything I am right now? The lies that I hear and find ( Read more... )

For the past few days I have had this apathetic feeling to the things that really matter. That is where I fuck up the most. When I pretend to not care about things that really matter. I am fucking myself over with every desicion I am making recently. Everyday seems like it is getting worse and worse. But what really bothers me is how much all my ( Read more... )

I'm not quit sure what is going on right now. I am finally officially out of high school. But now I feel like I am at a dead end. I am working 7 days a week at one job and another 5 days a week. But I also need to find time for school somewhere. I have never felt so confused in my life before. It's not just scholo it's everthing around me. No one ( Read more... )